#and i'll end my horrible tags with a brilliantly written lyrics by bmth

[defsbeom]

A little bit of truth.

Let me just start out by saying that I have pretty much grown up on the internet, I’ve been on this hell site for about 8 years now. I’ve been a part of numerous fandoms. I’ve also been a part of fandoms on other social media sites. And I’ve seen my fair share of fandom drama everywhere. 

What I hadn’t ever seen or experienced, and never thought I would, is just how someone can take Tumblr seriously enough to not even be considerate of how it can affect someone’s real life.

With that in mind, let me tell you a hypothetical story. Imagine there is a blog, and they love getting their fair share of attention, they thrive on the validation from certain other blogs. Imagine you are friends with them. There is a certain level of trust, a certain level of respect and admiration, obviously right? They’re your friend after all. They would give you the minimum respect every human deserves, if not what a friend deserves. They wouldn’t knowingly put you in danger. They would take care of you. And do correct me if I am wrong, but those are all things you would expect from a person who calls themselves your friend. 

Now imagine, that they go out and seek to start some drama or get some tea from another blog whilst hiding behind an anonymous button. Imagine they do get the tea. And imagine that the person they try to spill it to doubts that in reality, there is no hateful anon, just this person. Now imagine a situation where your friend comes to you, distress evident in their voice, on the verge of crying. They tell you that this person knows its them, that they will track their IP and post it online, that they know you probably think they’re a horrible person, that you probably hate them. And you spend about half an hour trying to convince them that everyone makes a mistake, that there is no way a third person could track their IP. At the end of this, they ask you if you would do something for them. Would you please do this for them? Please, they don’t know who else to turn to. Would you please go to this blog and message them saying it was you who sent the anon. Would you take the fall for her, make someone you don’t know hate you. Would you do that because you see, your friend already has a relationship with them, they couldn’t possibly risk that. Imagine they promise you, I will have your back, I promise you I will defend you to them. But please, god please, don’t tell our mutual friend. She will hate me, please don’t tell her. I know you’ve been emotionally manipulated in the past, I know you are in a terribly shitty place emotionally because therapy isn’t smooth sailing, I know you just almost lost someone very dear to you and all of it hit you like a freight train, I know you have trust issues, I know you can never believe a person when they say they love you, I know you think you don’t even deserve to be loved, I know the voices in your head that keep whispering to you ‘you will never amount to anything’ ‘people will always leave and find someone better’ ‘no one will ever chose someone like you’ but please, god please, will you do this for me? 

#i'll fucking spare you the details of the month i've had #or the hours of therapy i'll need to purge this out of my system #thanks @ universe for sending me such amazingly lovely people #and let me remind me my lovely friend karma is a vile piece of bitch #if you make someone feel like they are pathetic and don't even deserve to be treated like a human worth some value #then its gonna turn around and make you feel the same #when you made your bed you better have the balls to lay in it #and i'll end my horrible tags with a brilliantly written lyrics by bmth #you've got a lot of nerve but not a lot of spine