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#and ik thats the adhd but I could handle it before I knew if I left it last minute the panic would set in and I’d be suddenly productive
hella1975
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9 months
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tbf i really deserved to lose that poll im stupid af
#i need to come off the pill it’s not funny anymore 😂🙏🏼
#like it was already hard getting myself motivated for a degree i hate and then there’s the adhd shit on top of that
#which is literally the productivity killer but now the pill on top of all that has just taken any fear factor i might have had
#like i don’t feel anything I’m not nervous there’s no concept of repurcussions in my mind
#and it’s meant I’ve basically hardly fucking studied and it’s entirely my fault and im GOING to fail
#like you cannot walk into a uni exam with the barebones knowledge i have and still pass you just can’t
#like i spent all of yesterday trying to study and i didn’t get anything fucking done until 11pm
#when I did like. a solid hour. that’s it
#and it’s so frustrating bc it’s like well why didn’t you just study
#and im like i CANT it’s like an actual physical block stopping me
#and ik thats the adhd but I could handle it before I knew if I left it last minute the panic would set in and I’d be suddenly productive
#but now? nothing
#i just don’t feel anything ever and haven’t since literally march
#and even that the only reason i remember it as march so vividly is bc i had a fucking depressive episode
#physically the pill has done bits but it’s shredded the little mental stability i had and now we’re here and I’m failing my stupid degree
#even now it’s like. why am I on tumblr. the exam is in 1.5 hours. i have so much to do bc i did nothing yesterday
#and instead of me feeling panic or guilty or ANYTHING?
#nothing. just absolutely nothing it’s like im not even here
#hella goes to uni
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