#and im only halfway through my notes for chapter 1 and ive written 4k words and i dont know hOW

[persimminwrites]

i wanna go back to the days where i wrote chapters and oneshots that were less than 1-2k words

#screaming crying shouting #i just started writing the horror story after planning everything out (bc i have learned from my mistakes) #and im only halfway through my notes for chapter 1 and ive written 4k words and i dont know hOW #i think i just get upset and frustrated bc longer projects stress me out for a couple of reasons #and i was trying to keep this story to around 6 chapters and i dont know if i can do that if my word count continues at this rate sdkjfnsdj #longer stories stress me out bc im always worried about losing the thread of the story and it turning into something meandering #and i worry that it will become less engaging and no one will like it or want to read it and it will be BAD #and also im very much someone who just wants to get to the end of the story whether im reading or watching something or writing it myself #which is why i binge all media immediately but when its my writing and i realize its going to take a while to finish in my head i go #'OH NO' #bc im so scared that im going to lose motivation and not finish the story and that is also a huge fear for me bc then #i wont be able to move onto the next project bc ill hate myself for abandoning another and UGH #in reality this is not a big deal but i wanted to whine bc all ive written is setup and i want to get to the spooky #my need for immediate gratification strikes again #writing #min says