#and im so scared therapy was supposed to like hhmm not make me do that but I’m so nervous All The Time that it’s gonna happen again

[catradoracore]

@eleuthoeromania

#I’m too freaked out to text rn and I know that seems dumb ; but!!! #heres the thing #don’t freak out but I cant find my earbuds and I am freaking the hell out #i haven’t lost them since April and April is probably one of the most terrifying times ofmy life lol #I wish I could explain to you how scary it was Bridget I’m AAAAA #i was Not Myself at all #that was not me I don’t know who that was and it’s so horrible #and i. Haven’t told y’all this but while you were scared for me I was laughing on the other end. I was smiling and I was so goddamn empty #I’m so so fucking sorry I did that #it’s not really my fault but holy shit I can’t stop thinking about April #april 2016 was fucking shit too yeehaw! #i don’t get any breaks huh wow interesting do go on #april and November kick my ass every year lmao FUCK #im scared I’m gonna lose my mind again one day i’ll lose it again #and im so scared therapy was supposed to like hhmm not make me do that but I’m so nervous All The Time that it’s gonna happen again #so my memory’s getting worse which means i’ll Likely lose them again in the next school yr at some point #so how do u think that’s gonna play out oh my god if I lose them in like my first classor some shit #if I lose them again I’m terrified my mind will be absolutely gone for good #and then I either wake up or I don’t but it’s whatever the fuck tbh #vent #bridget #my friends #April 9th tag #Fuck it I’m doing a tag