#and it's not that this binds them because they've always been bound to each other but it shifts them into a new familiarity and dynamic

[carefulfears]

omg rm9 was kinda fun To Me. i enjoyed mulder and scully going on a sushi date, scully being SOOOOO embarrassingly down bad for a man she’s known over 20 years, and of course the restaurant attacking them because mulder is a bad tipper. it’s also just nice to see them living life, you know??

i had a blast with rm9 tbh, a classic s11 well! have no idea what happened there! but i enjoyed myself! episode. just talked about it a bit but yes!! just seeing them living life!! literally the majority of s11 isn't even them going on cases they're just like. existing. and falling into Situations. in rm9 all they wanted to do was go to this sushi place. scully is of course always embarrassing as hell but what i loved loved loved loved about her in rm9 (and consequently throughout s11) is that last moment at the diner when they're both on their phones, and she puts hers away and just kinda leans over to his shoulder and takes his hand, and he puts his phone down.

i was so floored to see her do that, to ask for his attention like that. so much of the original series is scully...almost quietly suffocating, sometimes? being on the edge of his myopia and focus? wanting him to see her so bad, and then lashing out (READ: fucking serial killers) to either rebel, or get him to notice? but it's been a long time and he has been many more things to her since and now she just grabs his hand and makes him turn to her. in forehead sweat when she whines that he needs to feed her or she's leaving!! and then she does leave!!! in plus one when they aren't even "back together" yet, and she sneaks into his motel room and asks him to hold her.

scully in the revival has left him. she has struck out on her own, had her own career, lived on her own, been a doctor. and she's back and they're back because there's work to be done, and because, as james wong says: "She’s in love with him that way. She had a different career as a doctor, but she came back, because this is so important to him—she’s coming back to be there for him."

she's back, and they're back, because they're always choosing each other, and they've proven it, and they've done the work. she complains about his stakeouts. she cracks jokes about being sure he's on his meds!! she knows that their son is "guiding" them both, somehow. she doesn't question it.

she's embarrassingly down bad even after 25 years because she's never anything but adored him, but there's so much more availability now. she can openly check him out and invite him back into her room and giggle at him and sleep on his jacket in bars. she used to cry, every single time that he was present with her. she used to be so overwhelmed that she couldn't speak, when he was focused on her. this is the inverse reaction of the stability and peace that mulder has found, there's a steady foundation for scully to grow on.

#i know i have an ask from one of you somewhere to do a post on revival scully. thinking it over i promise #but this is like The Main Thing to me by far #kisses #asks #rm9sbg93zxjz #tbh there's this shift in them after the baby was born that kind of gutpunches me...something is very different and solid #'what are you thinking about?' 'about my son. about his mother.' #she will forever be his son's mother. he will forever be her son's father. #and it's not that this binds them because they've always been bound to each other but it shifts them into a new familiarity and dynamic #something very dependent and primal and solid #but for so fucking long that new dynamic was so drowned in grief and loss that they didn't get to have each other any other way #what do you do when someone is your child's mother but you only got 3 days #when someone is your child's father but you spent your one and ONLY year of parenthood alone #hmph! many epiphanies. #anyway the point is that by the revival they're eating jello and watching twilight zone (or whatever it was) in the same house where #for a decade they could barely speak to each other. they were just haunted. #they're healing and it's bringing them closer to each other in orbits and it's lovely!

[allaganexarch]

ok ok ok otp ask meme #5 hawkedith because your brb video has now been tormenting me with meredith for literal months so i think i get to redeem one non-catboy ask token. (bonus 19 for them if i get to be greedy)

MENZO you deal with so much okay idk how anyone subscribes to my AO3 alerts each and every one is an affront to nature.

GOD TBH this made me miss them--maybe this will finally motivate me to finish the smutty one-shots sitting tragically on my desktop akjsdnksjdnjkasd

5. How would they describe each other?

"Marian Hawke is a menace. Not a day dawns when I am not faced with the aftermath of some...bizarre series of events, which invariably turns out to be linked to her. That she is permitted to walk free at all is an embarrassment. Had I known how things would turn out before she made such a name for herself, I would have...

"Do not misunderstand me--there is no denying her ability. And, though I do not relish saying so, I do believe her intentions are good. But the course of history is not defined by intentions. If she sends our fair city up in flames, there will be no one left to wonder at her intentions."

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"What do I think? About the Knight-Commander...? Well, she's...sort of terrifying, isn't she, I mean that's no secret. And I'd say it to her face. If I had to. Actually, I'd rather not.

"Still...she's really not anything like people think she is. I can't count the number of times I heard people whispering about her before I actually met her, and then she was...

"Terrifying. Definitely terrifying. But also strong, capable...and stoic. It would be awfully lonely, don't you think, to do what she does? No one could ever really be your equal."

19. Talk about a headcanon you’ve never talked about before.

I feel like for this particular ship I screamed every thought that entered my pea brain directly into the abyss LOL so how about instead I give you another snippet of some garbage that is sitting on my desktop. Disclaimer that it is mildly spicy and was written like 5+ years ago:

There's always a moment when at last they're alone, cold and electric, both of them frozen in time with eyes locked, afraid to move forward and unwilling to move away.

At first Hawke would move first, and Meredith would counter her, unwilling to cede the upper hand for more than an instant at a time. Now that they've established a rapport of sorts, Hawke is almost overwhelmed by the way Meredith advances, too quick to anticipate, too strong to resist.

That Meredith would have a taste for control came as no surprise to Hawke, and once she gets her bearings, her skill is damn near frightening. Hawke always fights against her restraints, and Meredith usually laughs. Before this, being tied up or held down was a game, a challenge to be overcome. With Meredith it is no such juvenile pursuit. There is no wriggling out of it, and definitely no turning the tides.

Sometimes, usually somewhere on the fringes of the Fade, Hawke wonders idly whether Meredith would ever allow herself to be bound. The thought is intoxicating enough to follow her into the waking world, but unthinkable in the face of the woman, herself.

Because sometimes, Meredith does not laugh, or even smile, and Hawke realizes, slowly, that she has been misinterpreting the laughter as some truer shade of Meredith's character. In these darker moments, splayed beneath Meredith's steely gaze, with an irresistible mixture of fear and anticipation building beneath her skin, Hawke realizes at last that she is seeing far more of the truth than she ever has in witnessing Meredith's more charitable moods.

The truth is that Meredith binds Hawke because she is afraid of what Hawke can do. The truth is that for all her control, all her power, Meredith is somehow convinced that Hawke has more.

#hawkedith #marian hawke #meredith #dragon age #da2edit #exciting tag for writing things #exciting tag for answered asks #yes it is 4 am i ruined my sleep schedule again lol