#and ive gotten so intimate to so many people so theyd because the person im monologing to in my head

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please please please get out of my head

#ive spent my life thinking in monologues to people #obviously it changes sometimes but i think it mostly remains the same #started with my parents in my head as a kid #then the great depression hit and i have no idea what my thoughts were till 2013 #then anubhavi with sprinklings of joy and vanshika and some other people for a while but they were all distractions #and then it was saumya for a very long time #and then it was the girl who shall not be named #and then it was you #and ive gotten so intimate to so many people so theyd because the person im monologing to in my head #but theyre just small breaks #no matter how hard i try the default comes back to u #i hate u #i dont want to say anything to #you are a symptom of my mental illness #i do not love u #u dont even exist #please leave me alone #i dont think the universe wouldve let u be on my mind for so long if u didnt want to be #please get out #idk how but i need u to stop existing #i need u to stop taking dares involving me and i need u to not think ahout my boyfriend or prom or how ugly my hair is #i need u to go back to hating me #i cant hate u anymore its so exhausting #i have given up so much just for distance from u why cant u just get out of my head #he loves me #he really really loves me #and i love him too #so why isnt he the voice in my head #why is it you #lmao i reached that 30 tag limit