#and jared is just like "yo this dude fuckin SUCKED i'm gonna make this benefit me

[fizzseed]

this is insane actually

#do i hate myself for doing a repost thing #yes #did i need to have this on ym blog?? yes #dear evan hansen #deh #generously dear evan hansen is an interesting story about a boy who creates a reality out of sheer desperation #like evan is kind of ridiculously unlikeable as a protagonist #but also so endearing in a way???? #there’s something so fucked up but so human about it #how all these people in the show are just so desperate #that they’ll cling to this SO unlikely reality that evan creates #evan is so desperate to BE something to be SEEN #and connors poor family is so desperate for his memory to be something GOOD #and it all just comes together to be something so painful #and horrible and weird and strange #like evan is clinging desperately to this idea of someone BEING there when he falls. he creates this illusion #of looking up and seeing connor after he breaks his arm #instead of being alone #and jared is just like "yo this dude fuckin SUCKED i'm gonna make this benefit me #and alana??? like yes she means well but she's ALSO making shit up to scrabble for purchase #noone deserves to disappear etc etc