#and like a dingus I decided I want this draft finalized on the same day I post for dverse

[fruitzbat]

im trying to get a working draft of this first chapter of my dissertation in by the 15th and I've never felt so braindead in my entire fucking life

#it's ofc impossible to explain if im asked why im stressed #bc it's like 'im worried its not enough and that im unable to write at the doctoral level' #which i know is an objectively irrational thing to say bc. i have a whole ass masters degree #two of them even #and it's a first draft #but im just petrified by the notion that im not able to write something good enough #and i just...I need it to be good! #and nobody has ever Said anything about me flunking out so I'm probably fine #UNLESS????? #so anyway that's where I'm at right now #and like a dingus I decided I want this draft finalized on the same day I post for dverse #so I'm editing two manuscripts at once basically #remy yells #remy does a doctorate