#and literally not talk to anyone bc i was terrified of talking to ppl TT

[kuiinncedes]

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#hmm lol going back to my old piano school's concert this weekend #ready to see all these kids making music together and be sad abt my life LMFAO #not ready . but it's fine nfdjgnkdsf #maybe this will push me to play piano again :| #bro when they emailed alumni asking them to come back im like idk if u meant me who hasn't touched piano in monthsss :DDD #and who isn't going anywhere / doing shit w her life lmao #but here i come anyway lmfao #nah bc i just looked at the instagram of one of the kids/alumni who is like semi slightly famous and actually making music #which is super cool and like so good for her #i'm just like . sad and unmotivated and jealous XD #i won their silly little mvp 'award' one yr for this concert .... bro all i did was come and play my silly lil piano on a few songs #and literally not talk to anyone bc i was terrified of talking to ppl TT #and they said mvp she doesn't say much but she leads by example LMFAO it's always that #i am slightly less terrified of talking to ppl now so growth ig lmao #i am significantly less terrified of talking to ppl now actually . still slightly terrified but the growth is real lolll #we'll see if i see anyone i know :'') old teachers rly #or bc other kids parents used to recognize me / talk to me and i felt so awkward lmao TT #my last piano teacher recently follow requested me on ig lmaoooo and then i accepted and requested her back and no response 🤨 #i'm sure she doesn't rly look at ig tho lol #anyway if i run into her and shes like hows piano going or anything and im like haha ha haha haha hahaha so like #school happened #anyway :') basically ready to feel awkward also if they do like call the alumni in the audience up on stage like they said they might TT #like i know i am alumni and i am supposed to do that but also i will feel awkward as fuck broooofjgsdhfbgdfk why lmao #damn anyway let's see what happens #i am looking forward to it tho i just need to not overthink fucking everything like i always do lolll #jeanne talks