#and my mom doesnt really believe me eithwr

[poorlittlevampire]

by the way idk what im supposed to do bc i don’t think the meds im on work anymore

#they worked for like two weeks and now im. #i wanna die and i feel exactly the same as i did before starting them #😐 #i think this is just life for me #i know i need to tell the psychiatrist and i will #but i think she thinks im lying to her #and she only meets over zoom so i have to do it with my mk #*mom #bc i have toooo much anxiety with video calls and cant do them alone (pathetic i know) #and my mom doesnt really believe me eithwr #so they kinda just gang up on me lol and idk how to express that smthn isnt working when they both think im just lying #ALSO i have no hope for the new therapist bc she told me that the goal is for me to be DONE with therapy in a year #like as if its a class. and i pass it and move on #and we only meet like twice a month and she wants to move it to once a month later on #like #its so frustrating it just feels like no one believes me that i have real deep fucking issues #how do you finish therapy??????? what does that even mean????????????????? #WHATEVER #im looking online for other options in my area but there really isnt much #+ everyone is so expensive and does not take my insurance #girl i am so trapped