#and my parents (love and cherish them) are SOOOO confident everything will be fine

[meirimerens]

i don’t recall ever mentioning it here but tldr i’m currently in more or less my last stretch of my school year (as in, i have decisive exams in 4 weeks before i actually have a degree-deciding exam in june) and since the whole plague situation had obliterated my mental health i find myself cramming like a maniac at D-30 of it.

art will be sporadic until then (if i don’t completely sabotage myself)

if you got a god ask them to watch over me

thank you all for your continuous love and support, i’m not going anywhere

#ALSO: to those on the commission waitlist i promise to get back to you as soon as i can unfortunately it's. well. gonna be a little while #i'm in an extremely '''''funny''''' predicament where i am stressing like a wardog #which paralyses me and wants me to use escapism as a mean to calm myself #which makes me work less and as such stress more #(etc) #and my parents (love and cherish them) are SOOOO confident everything will be fine #because until now everytime i stressed like a maniac and thought i would completely failed i passed; it went well #but this time i'm scared shitless For Real #except all the previous times i was also scared shitless and it went well and my parents were right #but this time. like i pray they're right but also #i feel myself running towards the wall #i *could* redo my year but #1. we have to notify profs before the exam that we want to redo and if i cant afford to NOT redo i don't want to #so if i say before and it goes well i'm into the wall #i also soooo don't want to redo because living in this city horrifies me #and i NEED clinical psychiatric help for real and i can't get any here since everything is overbooked and/or too expensive #anyways. all that to say. art sporadic i'm tryna get a degree #neigh (blabbers)