#and she wanted to fall in love. which is why she dated whatsisname. Jack? idr

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you ever think about how much Agnes Montague wanted to be a normal person and fall in love but she went through life unable to touch anyone or anything for fear of horribly maiming it. so the day before she died she finally allowed herself to feel the touch of another person, just once, and in doing so burned his face off

#I don’t actually remember if she died the next day or what I listened to this years ago it is half remembered #but like my god Agnes montague. what a fucking character. sometimes I remember and and I’m like Damn #I want to know more about her. the unknowability is half the point #this has been a post #oh rereading this I wanna make it clear #I do not mean to equate ‘normal person’ and ‘fall in love’ those are separate points #she wanted to be a normal person. which is why she’d go to the coffee shop and order coffee and sit there. with her coffee #and she wanted to fall in love. which is why she dated whatsisname. Jack? idr #different. separate points #connected! because they are both experiences she was barred from both by nature of what she was and by her specific upbringing #but yeah. not meant to be conflated there sorry