#and tbh. i’m just high key terrified because i think the moment i’ve been dreading for like over a decade is coming and idk how to deal with

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#nini’s nonsense #sorry for being said on main or wtv but no one’s online so i guess it doesn’t matter and also i need to scream #i haven’t felt this alone in a long long time #and tbh. i’m just high key terrified because i think the moment i’ve been dreading for like over a decade is coming and idk how to deal with #that ngl. and the thing is if i go through with this everyone will ask me about it and my god what do i tell them? #like this is going to probs break my mom’s heart but also. what if she’s like. ‘ah just like i thought’ like i’ll never forgive her for #that i can’t and it scares me so much idk what to do for real #cant believe i’m crying over this it’s been years since ive cried i hate this i hate this i hate this idk what to do fuck #anyways. time to sleep or wtv if you see i’m sorry do ignore adhdhdhdhd #it will all be okay etc etc. i’ll just move countries. yeah. need. a new job anyways maybe i’ll try a different country #because anyone who’s like. you can’t run from your problems. is a liar it’s actually the only kind of running i do. #anyways bye this was a nice convo with myself ashdhdhdhd