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#and then THAT line is also fun to put next to cicero's comments about the courage of men vs the planning of children!
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cic. att. 15.4.2 trans. e-pistulae / lucan, pharsalia 1.36-43 trans. a.s. kline
thinking about THIS. caesar as a tree cut down but still living. pompey as a tree still standing but dead. etc.
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Bound By Madness Chapter 17
Oh sweet, playful Jester Assassin, would you mind telling me about this family of yours? Do they know what you are? Or maybe they are also like you and that is why you are traveling to meet them? Has it been a long time since you last saw them? I would imagine that you have missed them. Did they move to Skyrim very long ago? I bet they miss Cyrodiil. No matter how much time passes, I shall always miss my homeland. No place will ever feel like home the same as the lands I grew up in. I bet-
"If Faith does not stop talking, how can she expect Cicero to answer her questions?" Cackling laughter followed the interruption.
Sorry. I didn't mean to keep going. It's just that I've kept the questions to myself for so long that once I started asking, they all spilled out like water across the floor.
"Oh, Cicero understands. Sometimes it is hard to stop when you finally have someone to talk to after so long without. Although Cicero is sure that Faith's two 'friends' were always willing to converse, he is also sure that it is not quite the same as having Cicero pay attention to her words, right?" The look he gave me as he spoke made me feel like there was far more to his words than I understood before he began speaking again. "Ahh, but Faith wants to know about Cicero's Family, yes? Hmmm, what can he say without having to worry about saying something he shouldn't? It would be so much easier if curious Faith was part of the Family, then there would be no worry about needing to keep so many secrets."
I'm not going to marry you just to learn something about your family! No! Just no!
For a moment, the Jester Assassin just looked at me with his jaw dropped slightly before suddenly he was curling his arms around himself as he began laughing so hard he could barely draw in a breath. Moments later, I could hear my Ellery joining in, causing me to wonder what was so funny about what I had said. I wasn't going to marry someone I was still learning about! And I was far too old to be adopted. What other way was there to join a family?
"Ahh, Cicero thinks silly Faith misunderstands! Cicero was not talking about that kind of family,  he was talking about his Family! The Family that he chose for himself, not the one he was born into! Ohh, but Faith looked so funny when she thought Cicero was asking her to marry him! He might think she is pretty, but Cicero has far too many obligations to allow himself to be distracted beyond perhaps a little fun. And pretty Faith has already made it clear she is not looking for that kind of fun. At least, not yet, hmm?" He slowly calmed his laughter and gave a shameless grin as he spoke. "Cicero is willing to wait for her to change her mind, but he hopes she does so before it is too late to play."
"Oh Divines, please tell me he doesn't honestly think you're going to sleep with him!" Ellery's voice came from the side of the wagon as he walked beside us.
Turning to him, I blushed at the look on my Jester's face. It was bad enough he made that suggestion after what Cicero had said, he didn't need to confirm what the Jester Assassin had meant!
He's just messing around, Ellery! He doesn't mean it! It's just a-
"Oh, but Cicero means every word of what he says! Cicero wouldn't say no to the pretty assassin's puppet if she wanted to let him teach her a different kind of dance than last time. Perhaps she already knows this dance, but if not, Cicero would be willing to show her how it goes," he said as he reached a hand over to trace his gloved fingers down my cheek. "Blushing Faith makes Cicero remember how long it has been since he's had anyone to share his bed, even if just for a short while."
It... It's just a joke, right? You're just messing with me to see how I react, right? I... You...
"Ahh, smart Faith has caught on to Cicero's little game! Yes, yes! He just wanted to see if he could make Faith blush even more, yes. Just a joke from silly Cicero," he said, the smile he gave before turning away not quite reaching his eyes.
When he pulled his hand away, I was barely able to stop myself from reaching out grab it back. Just how long had he been alone before seeking out his family? And what kind of family was it, that it was one he had chosen rather than had from birth? Why would they leave him alone for so long? What kind of family had he been born to that he would choose to be part of a family that he seemed so unsure of at times?
There had to be a way to find out more about this man and his family without crossing those deadly lines he'd drawn in the proverbial sand.
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Things had been uncomfortable between us ever since that awkward conversation, not to mention how things had become between me and Ellery. Amicus didn't really seem to have anything to say, but every time I so much as glanced at the Jester Assassin, Ellery was right there grumbling about it.
Still, I couldn't help but feel like I needed to apologize. No matter how uncomfortable he made me feel, I should have found a better way to make him realize it. Something that didn't make it sound like I was completely denying him. Except, isn't that what I was doing?
Glancing at the man who still refused to look in my direction, avoiding conversation since he couldn't read my lips and refusing to speak to me outside of necessity, I took a moment to look and take in the man I traveled with.
Would it really be so bad to be with a man like him? What am I thinking? He could kill me at any time! He's an assassin!
But so is Amicus. Besides, he hasn't killed me yet and has made it clear he would prefer not to if he could help it. So long as I follow his rules, he'll let me live. No peeking at his cargo, no asking about his family, and no trying to escape him. It was more than I had any right to expect from an assassin, even Amicus had commented on that at one point.
Oh, but I don't know the man nearly well enough to be with him! And besides, I don't want to give myself to someone who doesn't want to stay with me. I'd done that once and even if Amicus came back to me, it hasn't been the same. No, no, I want someone who will be my treasure and treasure me in turn. I don't want a 'for now' with someone. I want forever...
"Cicero can't guarantee a forever. That is why he does not offer it, even to someone as pretty and interesting as Faith. Cicero must put his Mother before anything else, even himself," the softly spoken words had me blinking, finally noticing that the man had turned to look at me while I'd been so busy thinking and talking to myself. "Cicero is not able to be that kind of treasure. Cicero is sorry he can't be what Faith is looking for."
Hearing him speak that way about himself, I could feel an old familiar pain as something inside me broke. Even if I wasn't sure why I said what I did next, I couldn't stop my lips from forming the words.
Oh, Cicero... You don't need to be that kind of treasure to become a treasure to me...
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Any bit of chapter 12 you want to do. This obviously has nothing whatsoever to do with the auspol references in it.
HERE YOU GO, FAM (under the cut)
“This is Darcy.”
“Darcy, Elizabeth. You’ve got a leak.” [interesting that the first thing she did when someone started asking questions they shouldn’t have been asking is she called Darcy to warn him.]
There was a moment’s pause. “No we don’t.”
“Look, Minister, [she’s calling him ‘Minister’ - she’s annoyed] I just got into my office to find some journalist named George Wickham [lol fuck that guy] dropping hints about something that’s happening today. I didn’t engage, so I cannot be certain if he meant your thing or some other thing, but I’m willing to guess it was your thing.” [come on, Lizzie, this is clearly you being concerned about/for him]
“Why does that name sound familiar?” Darcy mused, and the sound of typing came from his end of the call. “Oh right. I knew of him at university. Seemed like a bit of a dick.” [given that I got rid of their sordid backstory, that’s as far as the animosity goes]
“Well he’s a journalist now, so I think it’s safe to say that that continued,” Elizabeth commented. “If you’re confident that you don’t have a leak, then I shall wait with bated breath for whatever other fresh hell is coming today. [there’s always some variety of fresh hell to be let loose] But if I were you, I’d set wheels in motion sooner rather than later just in case.” [COULD YOU BE ANY MORE OBVIOUS, ELIZABETH? COME ON!]
“I’ll keep that in mind, thank you.”
Elizabeth ended the call and then opened up a number of twitter feeds, keeping an eye out for any posts that shouldn’t be there, while waiting for the inevitable BBC tweet that there was a leadership challenge underway. All things considered [the greatest prevaricating statement in existence], it was surprisingly swift and bloodless. The PM had been concerned with the challenge he had thought was coming from the Home Secretary, which meant that the votes he thought he needed to muster were not in fact the votes required. He conceded defeat like a gentleman, in front of a small cadre of reporters from news outlets that Elizabeth had selected. There was a show of unity behind the new leader. It was nothing like the 2015 ousting of Australia’s sitting Prime Minister [lol remember that time Tone got fucking dealt with by Malkie?], an affair so acrimonious that there had been a gelato flavour created in its honour [delicious], and generally the ne plus ultra [good phrase] of what they were very much not trying to go for over at Westminster.
This was not, however, the way things would have played out naturally [I mean, this was some light to moderate betrayal]. The moment some backbencher tweeted that there was going to be a party meeting because there had been a leadership challenge (Elizabeth made a note to send some underling to yell at him - one did not just tweet politics willy-nilly [Donald?]), she put her heels back on and made her way over to the party room where MPs were milling about waiting for the whips [in retrospect, I think that the word ‘’Whips’ should have been capitalised] to show up. Mr Gardiner had learned over the years that it was best to have a threatening presence [Like Darth Vader lurking in the corner, reminding people not to get ideas] reminding the major players that there were lines that were not to be crossed, and that any comments to the press, should they feel driven to provide them, should be measured and considerate, and in no way the sort of thing that Boris would have said about Theresa [Honestly, the lad just needs to declare a challenge and be done with it]. Nobody wanted to go back to the way things were in those days. [is this my IN NO WAY SUBTLE commentary on post-Brexit politics in England? Clearly]
She entered the room to hear the PM asking, in an almost disappointed voice, “Et tu, Darcy?” [I love a good ‘et tu’]
Darcy raised his eyebrows as if to say ‘I’m doing what needs to be done’ [and I also love expressions speaking eloquently], and left the soon to be ex-PM, walking over to Elizabeth. “What are you doing here?” he asked. [secretly delighted that he got to chat with his work crush] “The ballot hasn’t even happened yet.”
“I’m here as a silent threat, to remind everyone to comport themselves like adults.” [Darth Lizzie]
“What, you’re worried that Brutus is not, in fact, an honourable man?” [the shadiest line in any Shakespeare play. A line so shady that I thought it was actual Cicero. That was some serious betrayal when I discovered that I was wrong]
“Heavens no,” Elizabeth laughed. “The Brutuses [I am torn about this pluralisation. On the one hand, ‘Brutus’, having the vocative ‘Brute’ is clearly first declension masculine, which means that the plural ought to be ‘Bruti’. That said, I feel that the line scans better if  it is pluralised as if it were third declension masculine. Ignore me] are not my concern, for Brutus is an honourable man. I’m more worried that Julius won’t take twenty-three stab wounds like a champ.” [I did Latin at school for six years, and by god, I’m going to milk it for all it’s worth]
“In this case, I can say with certainty that Julius is a terribly sound chap.” [the return of ‘sound’ness]
“There’s ‘sound’, and then there’s ‘he was just stabbed in the back twenty-three times by his fellow senators [harsh]’.” Darcy did not look guilty in the slightest as she continued, for indeed was Brutus an honourable man [I’m having way too much fun with this line]. “Not to mention the fact that one of the backbenchers already tweeted that a challenge was underway, so the cat’s rather out of the bag as it were. If I’m here glaring at people, they’re less likely to tweet things, and that makes my job significantly easier in the long run.” Darcy was looking at her in an odd manner [yeah - heart-eyes] as she surveyed the room sternly as yet more MPs filed in. “It’s probably not good for your image to be seen to be too chummy with the media relations demons,” Elizabeth pointed out [concerned for his career - adorable]. “If you want to be respected by your peers as the next Foreign Sec, you probably shouldn’t be chatting with some chit [she’s never letting that one go] from the civil service.” She smiled insipidly at him, before catching sight of the MP who had posted the first tweet and glaring daggers in his direction.
“That assumes that I expect my peers to do anything other than resent me for being some young hotshot who got one of the top cabinet posts after the political equivalent of five minutes in the Commons [once again, Darcy reminds us that he’s a clever lad with more than the average dose of self-awareness]. They’re going to dislike me regardless, and are you really never going to let that comment go? It was not my finest moment, and I apologise once again most sincerely for any offence it caused,” Darcy said in a put-upon manner. [poor lad, he just wants her to like him, and meanwhile she keeps bringing that up]
“There was no offence, Darcy [there was some offence, at the time, she has since gotten over that offence], it was bloody hilarious [not so much at the time, but definitely later]. I just keep bringing it up because it makes you uncomfortable, and a large part of my job is making cabinet ministers uncomfortable [that and she likes him, even if she won’t admit it]. Since you’ve become nicely adept at avoiding media gaffes, I have to make do.”
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Bound By Madness Chapter 18
Oh sweet, playful Jester Assassin, would you mind telling me about this family of yours? Do they know what you are? Or maybe they are also like you and that is why you are traveling to meet them? Has it been a long time since you last saw them? I would imagine that you have missed them. Did they move to Skyrim very long ago? I bet they miss Cyrodiil. No matter how much time passes, I shall always miss my homeland. No place will ever feel like home the same as the lands I grew up in. I bet-
"If Faith does not stop talking, how can she expect Cicero to answer her questions?" Cackling laughter followed the interruption.
Sorry. I didn't mean to keep going. It's just that I've kept the questions to myself for so long that once I started asking, they all spilled out like water across the floor.
"Oh, Cicero understands. Sometimes it is hard to stop when you finally have someone to talk to after so long without. Although Cicero is sure that Faith's two 'friends' were always willing to converse, he is also sure that it is not quite the same as having Cicero pay attention to her words, right?" The look he gave me as he spoke made me feel like there was far more to his words than I understood before he began speaking again. "Ahh, but Faith wants to know about Cicero's Family, yes? Hmmm, what can he say without having to worry about saying something he shouldn't? It would be so much easier if curious Faith was part of the Family, then there would be no worry about needing to keep so many secrets."
I'm not going to marry you just to learn something about your family! No! Just no!
For a moment, the Jester Assassin just looked at me with his jaw dropped slightly before suddenly he was curling his arms around himself as he began laughing so hard he could barely draw in a breath. Moments later, I could hear my Ellery joining in, causing me to wonder what was so funny about what I had said. I wasn't going to marry someone I was still learning about! And I was far too old to be adopted. What other way was there to join a family?
"Ahh, Cicero thinks silly Faith misunderstands! Cicero was not talking about that kind of family,  he was talking about his Family! The Family that he chose for himself, not the one he was born into! Ohh, but Faith looked so funny when she thought Cicero was asking her to marry him! He might think she is pretty, but Cicero has far too many obligations to allow himself to be distracted beyond perhaps a little fun. And pretty Faith has already made it clear she is not looking for that kind of fun. At least, not yet, hmm?" He slowly calmed his laughter and gave a shameless grin as he spoke. "Cicero is willing to wait for her to change her mind, but he hopes she does so before it is too late to play."
"Oh Divines, please tell me he doesn't honestly think you're going to sleep with him!" Ellery's voice came from the side of the wagon as he walked beside us.
Turning to him, I blushed at the look on my Jester's face. It was bad enough he made that suggestion after what Cicero had said, he didn't need to confirm what the Jester Assassin had meant!
He's just messing around, Ellery! He doesn't mean it! It's just a-
"Oh, but Cicero means every word of what he says! Cicero wouldn't say no to the pretty assassin's puppet if she wanted to let him teach her a different kind of dance than last time. Perhaps she already knows this dance, but if not, Cicero would be willing to show her how it goes," he said as he reached a hand over to trace his gloved fingers down my cheek. "Blushing Faith makes Cicero remember how long it has been since he's had anyone to share his bed, even if just for a short while."
It... It's just a joke, right? You're just messing with me to see how I react, right? I... You...
"Ahh, smart Faith has caught on to Cicero's little game! Yes, yes! He just wanted to see if he could make Faith blush even more, yes. Just a joke from silly Cicero," he said, the smile he gave before turning away not quite reaching his eyes.
When he pulled his hand away, I was barely able to stop myself from reaching out grab it back. Just how long had he been alone before seeking out his family? And what kind of family was it, that it was one he had chosen rather than had from birth? Why would they leave him alone for so long? What kind of family had he been born to that he would choose to be part of a family that he seemed so unsure of at times?
There had to be a way to find out more about this man and his family without crossing those deadly lines he'd drawn in the proverbial sand.
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Things had been uncomfortable between us ever since that awkward conversation, not to mention how things had become between me and Ellery. Amicus didn't really seem to have anything to say, but every time I so much as glanced at the Jester Assassin, Ellery was right there grumbling about it.
Still, I couldn't help but feel like I needed to apologize. No matter how uncomfortable he made me feel, I should have found a better way to make him realize it. Something that didn't make it sound like I was completely denying him. Except, isn't that what I was doing?
Glancing at the man who still refused to look in my direction, avoiding conversation since he couldn't read my lips and refusing to speak to me outside of necessity, I took a moment to look and take in the man I traveled with.
Would it really be so bad to be with a man like him? What am I thinking? He could kill me at any time! He's an assassin!
But so is Amicus. Besides, he hasn't killed me yet and has made it clear he would prefer not to if he could help it. So long as I follow his rules, he'll let me live. No peeking at his cargo, no asking about his family, and no trying to escape him. It was more than I had any right to expect from an assassin, even Amicus had commented on that at one point.
Oh, but I didn't know the man nearly well enough to be with him! And besides, I don't want to give myself to someone who didn't want to stay with me. I'd done that once and even if Amicus came back to me, it hasn't been the same. No, no, I want someone who will be my treasure and treasure me in turn. I don't want a 'for now' with someone. I want forever...
"Cicero can't guarantee a forever. That is why he does not offer it, even to someone as pretty and interesting as Faith. Cicero must put his Mother before anything else, even himself," the softly spoken words had me blinking, finally noticing that the man had turned to look at me while I'd been so busy thinking and talking to myself. "Cicero is not able to be that kind of treasure. Cicero is sorry he can't be what Faith is looking for."
Hearing him speak that way about himself, I could feel an old familiar pain as something inside me broke. Even if I wasn't sure why I said what I did next, I couldn't stop my lips from forming the words.
Oh, Cicero... You don't need to be that kind of treasure to become a treasure to me...
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