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heliaden · 1 year

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happy lonely birthday

happy lonely birthday to the aunt i disowned four years ago

i wish i could rub it in your face how much I am

thriving & flourishing

after cutting you out of my life

[because you were a Dupont Cleanup Site,

an environmental hazard not fit to be around people]

but i'd rather leave you to wonder about whatever happened to your sister's child

the one you thought deserved to be tossed away like trash

tried to force her to throw me out on the street as if you had any say in these matters

because i refused to live my life according to this road map that you drew up for me when you aren't even my parent

you thought everything would be much better if i were dead so you could sit there and cry crocodile tears that even the shittiest actress could do leagues better

crying "boohoo and woe is me, my sister's child is dead"

ignoring the fact that the knife had your own fingerprints on the handle

and then you wondered why i wanted nothing to do with you

when you made up your own narrative, conspired with the Disowned Brother on how to make it seem like i was the one out of their mind

that there was something wrong with me

when it was just your projections

if you wanted to be the heroine of a story so badly why not just write one yourself and leave everyone else out of it

where you save the day and everyone loves you for it or so your delusions and unhinged tirades and rants on Facebook proclaim...

the comments are people wondering has she no shame? after you go off on your deceased friend's nieces because I did so much more than you to women old enough to be your daughters

women who were doing the best they could whilst trying to raise up their families

your paranoia in thinking that i along with everyone else was out to get you... why would i be out to get you? you barely registered on my radar

you were the one who cut me out and i returned the favour it was a mutual bridge burning ritual and over the roar of the flames as the wood was devoured you shouted at me you will never amount to anything. you will never find happiness. you will never find someone who loves you.

and then you proceeded to stalk me after i moved like a wild woman keeping tabs on her victims to see if she can re-victimise them in the future and spin this web of lies about you being the one stalked instead

because you always need to be the victim, dont you?

happy birthday to the victim blaming victim

the woman who tries to catch her victims and wrap them in a cocoon spun from spider silk made from lies

happy birthday to the woman who lost all of her friends and became the town's biggest embarrassment

[such a fall from grace for someone who used to be the town's heroine]

happy birthday to the woman who returned to the burnt bridges and saw just how much destruction she caused to the lives of people she once maybe cared about

some of them were partially rebuilt with a variety of materials, many of them unsuitable to last for the long term

some of them were rebuilt but with signs every 5 feet reminding anyone who crossed of the boundaries they agreed not to cross

and some of them were like mine: a charred and burnt out mess that will never be rebuilt because i am flourishing & thriving

you will never meet my spouse

and yes i've told her all about you and the things you've said and done

you can yell across the chasm and ask for me to throw across to you a rope or something with which to bridge the gap

but i never answer

happy lonely birthday

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skyeventide · 3 years

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Okay so for a Tolkien character Míriel and for other fandom I'm vaguely aware you used to write frev things, i THINK. So uhhh Marat. I am so sorry. Yes I chose Marat because his name starts with M also.

okay let's do both starting with miriel

How I feel about this character

I like her! there's a lot of little details about her that are great, and for however much I might mourn that her narrative story is cut so short, there's something I find very interesting in the fact that you can make a very solid argument for post-natal depression as part of her story. she's a pretty harrowing look into matters of mental illness in elves and in valinor as well, as well as one of those mother characters in the legendarium that imo inherit something from Tolkien's own mother (and his mother's death, as well). cool, 10/10, I dig her.

All the people I ship romantically with this character

I'm gonna be big boring and say Finwe (and I do actually ship it), but also Indis if you spin it right, and Finwe/Indis/Miriel? the poly three-way is something I would like to read, or even write, but it's hard to do it in a way that I find satisfactory, primarily because some of the pivotal metaphysical conflicts of the laws and customs are centered around them and solving those is harder than simply working through interpersonal relationships. a challenge for another time.

My non-romantic OTP for this character

Vaire and Nienna are up there, then if we are counting the obvious familial relationships also Feanor, and the platonic Indis relationship is also interesting.

My unpopular opinion about this character

I'm not sure I have any opinion that can be considered unpopular? I don't think there's any discourse around her that would warrant the definition. I have some strictly in-universe thoughts that I would like to loudly share with people of Arda who seem beyond incapable of letting this woman choose and keep the names she wants and her personhood seemingly co-opted for this and then that; and that's like, beyond the Therinde/Serinde thing, though of course it's related, but I'm referring to the Fíriel name primarily, which? "the one who died"? come tf on guys. but like I said, that's a bone to pick with the elves, not really an opinion per se.

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon.

okay, hear this. she returns to life after Finwe's death, but before the kinslaying at Alqualonde, and leaves Vaire's halls. a story I want to read.

and now Marat under the cut

How I feel about this character

okay I should specify that I never wrote FRev, only read a lot about it, gobbled down other media, and read historical accounts, so it's a little hard to talk about how I feel about Marat as a character while restraining myself from like, tryna distinguish between the historical Marat, the reception of Marat in later literature, and the hmmm propaganda of Marat in his favour or against him. thorny issue. so I'll pick one thing: it's fascinating how the sanctification of Marat specifically happened through the visuals of Jacques Louis-David, whose knowledge of historical sources is ample and evident if you know where to look. I'm talking specifically about the position of his arm in the very famous painting. google any deposition of Christ and you'll see the exact same arm position, sooo how's that for religious symbolism in a secular icon

All the people I ship romantically with this character

uhhh probably Simonne Evrard, his wife. I've seen and read some plays where there's some wild writing of sexual tension via blade-penetration with Charlotte Corday (notable the Marat/Sade by Peter Weiss, no that's not a ship name it's how the play is shortened) but like, I enjoy it solely for how unhinged it is.

My non-romantic OTP for this character

France

My unpopular opinion about this character

the leopard print of his lapels is incredibly fashionable actually. also, he's not always as extreme as some detractors painted him if you go and read his actual positions and their development.

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon

heh, good enough health to keep going coulda been cool.

#meme.#galadhremmin #Miriel #Marat #well never thought I'd use these two tags together lmfao

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