#and we watched my one cousin play an elden ring game (??? i think? that family of video games)

[sharkieboi]

I gotta remember I don’t actually like the family party on the 26th and I would much rather be home alone or spending this time with friends, this one is always so overwhelming this house is full of loud opinionated people with undiagnosed ADHD who can’t hold a fucking straightforward conversation to save their lives and my dad always gets upset about how much everyone drinks and the food sucks and every time I try to get to a quieter spot or find an actual pocket of conversation it gets invaded and derailed and shouted over immediately

#shhh sharkie #no one let’s each other finish a story so you’re derailed immediately #and my aunt’s family is so stubborn and angrily opinionated it’s impossible to make yourself heard #they’re talking government conspiracy theories rn and i want to shoot myself #i just want to go back to my video games with my noise canceling headphones #adding on now that we’re back at my parents and i’ve gotten some sleep and decompression time but — #i love them all i truly do it just gets very overwhelming at that party in particular #i did do the big kid thing of remembering i can just (politely and diplomatically) leave a conversation i don’t want to be having #especially if it’s one that’s just happening around me I that no one is letting me get words in anyway #so when things got really overwhelming at the dinner table and i was just watching the younger adults watch SNL in the living room #and reading the subtitles for a stupid transphobic skit with fucking adam driver of all people. and that was just the perfect cherry on top #i cleared my plate and refilled my glass and went into the other room where it was much quieter but still ‘present’ and played video games #was much more at ease for it. #and then later I ran a mini-session of the DnD oneshot for my cousins! and we nerded out over my dice collection and other games #and we watched my one cousin play an elden ring game (??? i think? that family of video games) #and then it was time to go home! #and i got to very neatly avoid the top-of-the-lungs tswift singalong happening with the main party 🙃 #tldr i love you all individually in your own way and its not your fault but y’all are too damn loud!!!