#and yes perhaps to some degree this happening so often is his own fault bc he resigned himself (gladly) to

[amaurotine]

in a world of ppl who can perceive aether (and therefore possibly the impact of emotions upon the soul in real time); in a world where everyone is polite to a rehearsed and almost rigid degree at times, in a world where being too straightforward could be considered unkind/improper and therefore poetic vagueness is often necessitated for the sake of propriety, i think it would actually be nice to be told, point blank and with no room left for ambiguity or misinterpretation, that you are loved and needed. that you are loved and needed, outside the context of you being someone's friend or wingman but for yourself and the other things that compose your essence and your person.

i think it's smth that hyth really fucking needs to hear and i think so much abt ppl interacting with him just to ask where e.met or a.zem is (which, to be fair, is a natural question bc the two are often inseparable and it is generally widely assumed by everyone in ama.urot that hyth knows where ha.des is, due to him also being notorious for keeping tabs on most of what goes on in ama.urot) but it's also kind of painful because he would like to be needed and loved for himself and not because he's someone who can someone else for you bc he is friends with that person,

#🧋 — spillin' on ur dash. #and yes perhaps to some degree this happening so often is his own fault bc he resigned himself (gladly) to #being a support role. to being THAT friend. #but i think it's also valid to be kind of :/ when he just wants to hang out and ppl immediately ask him where ha.des or az.em is. #i think he deserves to be cared for outside of just the context of his relationships with other ppl and its kind of painful #when you realize that your love and friendship with certain ppl is. in others' eyes. your sole defining value. #like nobody is interested in who YOU are as a person outside the fact that you're friends/lovers/etc with certain better-known individuals #and this isn't coming from a place of begrudging a.zem or e.met anything; he's proud of them and loves them more than anyone #it's. like. hard to explain. but there is something kind of painful abt ppl defining you this way and this way alone. like you dont exist #or have importance outside the context of people you're associated with. #regarding others as individual people with feelings and thoughts and complexity #vs. simply regarding others more or less as a means of finding someone else... #like. is he hythlodaeus to you or is he just emet-selch/azem's best friend??? #(and yeah i get that he is very much Both Of Them but which comes first in your eyes?? that matters in how you regard someone.)