#and ykw im a fighter too. i stay at work till the very end

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#i will Not cut just because my disability is causing me to miss school #i will Not feed into suicidal ideation just because im struggling in life #i am disabled. i forget sometimes but i am. #my body is far more susceptible to ailments than others. and it sucks but its morally neutral. #even if others dont believe me or think im a hypochondriac it doesnt make it true. #ive been shown time and time again that my assessments of my ailments are correct. #when i feel ill ive been told my brown ass turns pale. im not making shit up. #and ykw im a fighter too. i stay at work till the very end #i work hard in my academics until i burn out. im not lazy. im the opposite of lazy. #ptsd and adhd have fucked up my body. and today the issue was some new meds that fucked me up. #and ive missed so many classes bc its over 100° DAILY in my city and ive been unable to fucking get up after work #let alone drive 30 minutes to campus in heavy traffic and spend 3 hours listening to lecture. #it makes sense that I cant make it to class much of the time. i just need to play things smarter. #school will take me longer than other people. and thats okay. i can chill.