#and/or yiddishemamas in training

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it's been about a year now since i got unceremoniously dropped from a whole friendship group with no explanation... or i guess i was conspicuously excluded from an occasion and had to suffer through seeing five other people posting about it on instagram... to this day i don't know what happened or why i was deemed unworthy, but what i do know is that i reached out to my closest friend in the group to ask about it and because i made an active effort to ask, even though it felt like pulling teeth, i am still friends with that one person (though we don't see each other super regularly), and as for the rest of that group i don't really miss them at all. but it really made me think about what i want from irl friendship and how i can make more of an effort, and in general i've done that, but there's no real replacement for a group of people who regularly throw dinner parties, who take your dietary needs into account as though it's nothing; and even though i only had that group for a year at most i still feel its loss acutely - not because i don't have fulfilling friendships, my friendships are more fulfilling than ever - but because i don't have any friends who enjoy dinner parties. no real point to this post except i keep saying i'll try to make something happen and then i never do... i suspect that if i were the one to make the effort to pull people together for a dinner, it would actually happen, except that my closest friend and her partner are about to leave town and that's about 50% of my social circle so ?? LOL

#liveblogging life #i never got the chance to host before that group dropped me LOL #where is the justice in this world for born hostesses with the mostest #and/or yiddishemamas in training