#anyhow ill be chill im just overstimulated and kind of disappointed in myself for my entire self

[bingobongobonko]

youve got a real funny way of thinking about things

#vent #cant draw for shit rn but helps #idc #anyhow ill be chill im just overstimulated and kind of disappointed in myself for my entire self #my friend bought a house for her mom and im just kinda like. Ohmmm. blinking. thats awesome dude fuck #it IS awesome #i dont even know what to say. thats awesome #i should be doing the same shit and yet #i am cowering in my room because lights are scary and voices make me on edge #i should be more proactive not reactive #why do i act like this #i wish i was somebody else #am i a loser #might be #i certainly dont want to say im useless bc useless implies that ppl who cant meet societal goals #are of no use 2 society which i dont agree with whatsoever. why would u #but i definitely dont feel useful