#anyway cacan we also talk about the puppet metaphor thing because. uhm. feelin it

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

can we talk about autoheart. let's talk about autoheart

#dont actually talk to me about autoheart i WILL stsrt crying #idk what it is about this mans voice but like. i can feel the cells in my body actively cannibalizing themselves /pos #ive listened to sailor song like 12 times tonight but fine i prommy <3 #i dont get how like. oughghghhh like. #they lyrics dont Mean Anything but at the same time they DO and its paired with like. #somber piano and a fucking angelic voice i cant survive that ok #restraining myself by not listening to hungover in the city of dust. im being strong ronight i promise. #sailor song just. came on shuffle so i listened to it and thatwas a MISTAKE #anyway cacan we also talk about the puppet metaphor thing because. uhm. feelin it #famous last words the marrionette. marrionettes by kanaya. ouija harley poe. pretty in porcelain. puppet loosely strung. #appetite of a people pleaser. the scary jokes icicles. trophy wife. DRIFT AWAY. #NEED I GO ON. #its about having your agency stripped from you and having no self worth abd being hopelessly infatuated #and then snapping out of it years later only to look bacback and go ''wow that was fucked up'' and being ANGRY ABOUT IT #anyway. anybody else feeling like a puppet with their strings cut. anybody else feelin like. #you dont know who to be when youre on your own and nobody is telling you what to do anymoee #and on one hand thats so freeing because its something youve never experienced before #but on the other. what gives you the right to have your own agency. you were Made To Do Things For Other People. #and now there are no other people so youre just like. well now what. #what even is a marionette without someone holding the strings. its nothing. just like. a fuckign painted piece of plastic. #but like . why should it be anything else. its good enough as it is. #someone took the time to painstakingly paint on the details and show it love through creation. #but it sure doesnt feel like it when ur sitting limp on an empty stage. #sorry i ammmmmmmm goin g thru it a lil tonight shfshfbdjdshfshfbdjdb can we TALK about puppet metaphors #I WAS YOUR ARMCHAIR YOUR MATTRESS YOUR TV. YOUR EVERLASTING TALK SHOW HOST. MOUTHING BABY YOURE WONDERFUL #I FELL UNDER YOUR CONTROL SWITCH ON SWITCH OFF ROBOTIC AND I LOST EVERY OUNCE OF MYSELF #<<< listening 2 sailor song again smile #its about. mourning the piece of your soul they took. and wanting it back #and being fucking angry that they took it but also missing them because things were so much easier when they owned you. yknow. #delete later