#anyway im fucking like deteriorating sggdgdggd

[bunnyb34r]

I need life to slow the fuck down bc my skin is starting to hurt real bad from all this picking :/

#marquilla #i need a healthy coping mechanism but nothing hits like self destruction dgdgdghddg #my brain is hard wired from genetics to pick at my skin and hair on both sides 😭 i was doomed from the start #i do try to not do it btw im not like oh well guess theres no options! like no i know but i need a foolproof one #or for life to fucking chill #every four years i become an over plucked chicken for 10 months and think ab pulling my head hair out bc yall are driving me up the wall #i got into a fight in 2016 ab the election and i nearly started punching... like i had to hit the bed instead bc im like god i cant hurt #them but GOD DO I FEEL THE NEED TO TO GET YOU TO GET IT #i think i like plucked DEEP that day just taking my anger and frustration out bc good lord #like how can you be like hmm well im gonna vote for this guy bc fuck poor people. i work retail and so i see people abusing ebt a lot #therefore it makes me mad and i wanna stop it. #like you only notice the 'fraud' and misuse/bad choices people make bc thats negative in your mind so #your brain holds onto it. youre not noticing the poor people who are just minding their business using ebt and feeding their family #ive gotten through to them at least a little ab how fraud is less than 1% and that the fraud is usually selling stamps for cash for diapers #and shit and that it's people sharing cards bc they need to pool their funds to feed their families #that the people you see stealing or buying expensive ass meats on ebt are not the majority and if they wanna waste their limited funds each #month like that then thats a them problem. mind your business. #anyway im fucking like deteriorating sggdgdggd