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i think one of the reasons people have suck a knee-jerk reaction to the word queer is that so many people don’t want liberation, they want acceptance. we finally have one foot in the door, a chance at love and success, but to accept weird and non conforming and cringe and xenogenders gays into your community means we as a whole get looked down upon again.

to be queer is to be odd, and a lot of assimilationists don’t want to embrace being odd, they want to fit in the mainstream. and while that’s alright as a personal choice, too many people can’t achieve this without punching down on other gays- the queers specifically.

#best in the queueniverse

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I talk to many people who say things like "oh I have trauma but I don't have PTSD", but then when I talk to them a little more I realize that they most likely do, they just can't recognize it as such due to how lacking PTSD awareness is, even beyond the whole "it's not just a veteran's disorder" thing.

The main reason they think they don't have PTSD usually has to do with flashbacks and nightmares, either they have one but not the other or have neither. But here's the thing, those are only two symptoms out of the 23-odd recognized symptoms. Flashbacks and nightmares are two of the five symptoms under Criterion B (Intrusion), which you only need one of for a diagnosis. The other three symptoms are unwanted upsetting memories, emotional distress after being reminded of trauma and physical reactivity after being reminded of trauma (i.e. shaking, sweating, heart racing, feeling sick, nauseous or faint, etc). Therefore you can have both flashbacks and nightmares, one but not the other, or neither and still have PTSD.

In fact, a lot of the reasons people give me for why they don't think they have PTSD are literally a part of the diagnostic criteria.

"Oh, I can barely remember most parts of my trauma anyway." Criterion D (Negative Alterations in Cognition and Mood) includes inability to recall key features of the trauma.

"Oh but I don't get upset about my trauma that often because I avoid thinking of it or being around things that remind me of it most of the time." Criterion C (Avoidance) includes avoiding trauma-related thoughts or feelings and avoiding trauma-related external reminders, and you literally cannot get diagnosed if you don't have at least one of those two symptoms.

"Oh I just have trouble getting to sleep or staying asleep, but I don't have nightmares." Criterion E (Alterations in Arousal and Reactivity) includes difficulting sleeping outside of nightmares.

"But I didn't have many/any trauma symptoms until a long time after the trauma happened." There's literally an entire specification for that.

Really it just shows how despite being one of the most well-known mental illnesses, people really don't know much about PTSD. If you have trauma, I ask you to at least look at the criteria before you decide you don't have PTSD. Hell, even if you don't have trauma, look at the criteria anyway because there are so many symptoms in there that just are not talked about.

PTSD awareness is not just about flashbacks and nightmares.

#ptsd #complex ptsd #trauma #mental health #best in the queueniverse

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just system things…

when your family is looking through old photos together and you dissociate *so* heavily bc that wasn’t *you*, that was a previous version of you, and they are locked away deep inside, and you have no or only vague memory of ever existing in that state

anyways. hazy now

-big dipper

#yup #best in the queueniverse

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at this point i don’t care if israel should be a state or not, i don’t care if hamas did terrible things, i don’t care if ‘both sides are bad’

stop killing children and then we can fucking talk about the nuances

#jewish antizionism #jews for palestine #firefly flickers #ash.txt #free gaza #free palestine #palestine #gaza #stop the genocide #stop killing children

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this is a post for systems who don't see themselves in that oh-so-common narrative of starting out scared of their diagnosis, scared of each other, and fighting for control. we see so much out there telling that kind of story, but it doesn't fit us so I wanted to write something that would.

when we learned about DID, we realized we might finally get answers for so many things about us that had eluded us for our whole life up to that point. we had been searching for answers about "what is wrong with me?" for so long, but nothing ever seemed to fit. we were misdiagnosed so many times. so getting diagnosed DID, for us, was a RELIEF. finally, a way forward. finally, things could start getting better. that's not to say this time in our life was easy, but for the first time in a long time we had hope again and that carried us so far. even though we're a programmed system, we carried the momentum of this newfound hopefulness into a lot of teamwork towards a better, freer future. it, no exaggeration, saved us.

we never see anyone talk about having this perspective, so I wanted to share. if this matches your experience even a little, hi! we see you and we appreciate you and you're not the only ones.

#best in the queueniverse

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Advice for newer discovered systems:

A hard truth you might not want to hear: but sometimes you need to put finding things out about the system on the back burner. Sometimes you will need to just push it to the side and come back to it later. This is something I've seen other systems also express before as well.

Think you have a new alter, but you have an important school assignment to do? The alter can wait. Unless they decide to make their presence everyone's business, just leave it be and go looking for them after you do the assignment

Think you have a subsystem, but have life to be doing? You can come back to that topic when you have free time. It isn't that important at the moment

Worried because you haven't heard from an alter for awhile? Don't drop everything to try and get them to front. Just go about your day and they'll come back when they're needed

Think you're splitting? Just take some pain meds for the headache if you need and go about your day. You can figure out who split when you have more time.

Basically, don't drop everything because you want to find out about something. Don't obsess over it to the point you can't function in daily life or get stressed over it. These things will be learned when it is time. Stop trying to check all these imaginary boxes immediately.

Seriously, we've known about the system for about 4 years and we still don't know shit about how things work half the time. And we only take a look into things when we have a chance to. Our job and life are a bit more important than figuring out who the hell might be in this newly revealed layer and stuff like that. We know the time will come to learn. It just isn't right now

#best in the queueniverse

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Every Body

your disabled, fat, deformed, intersex, trans, scarred body is worthy. claim it.

your stare attracting, "ugly," "grotesque," "freakish" body has beauty. love it.

your weak, exhausted, painful, uncooperative body is deserving of care. be gentle with it.

the body that doesn't look like you is a vessel for you to experience joy. respect it.

no body needs censorship. every body is equal.

#best in the queueniverse

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There are currently ~2300 works in AO3 tagged with "Created Using Generative AI"

I'll be upfront with my opinion, which mirrors my opinion in regards to my field: using AI will only hasten your own obsolescence. The point of fanfiction is not to crank out fics, but rather to enjoy the hobby and communities of writing and fandom.

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#save #tysm omfg

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Only one thing y’all can take from trans women. Notes.

#theyre so pretty omfg #undescribed video

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this may be controversial, but we are a system without RAMCOA/OEA trauma, and we have an alter with a number name (not his only name, but one they feel connected to). there are other forms of trauma that might cause an alter to use a number name, and it doesn’t feel fair to keep that from people/systems who didn’t go through a very specific type of trauma

(i can’t really speak on just preferring number names or having number names connected to a source (like an SCP), as we don’t have any alters who relate to that)

I feel like number names shouldn’t be a way to basically display ur trauma. I understand they’re only for RAMCOA victims but it’s honestly just dangerous imo

honestly we don't think they're only for RAMCOA victims, singlets use number names all the time, why is it different if an alter uses it? As long as they're not mocking the name I think it's fine. And I agree, having number names be RAMCOA only is very dangerous, it reveals their trauma to people, which can expose them to those who wish to take advantage of them

#firefly flickers #anti endo #osddid #polyfrag #endos dni #ash.txt

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i do somewhat agree with this, but i don’t think i would listen to a random person on the internet trying to suggest a diagnosis for me based on a very superficial understanding of my life

it just feels super inappropriate to me, especially since people on the internet have no filter regarding questioning people who are professionally diagnosed (we’re pro researched self-diagnosis, but being professionally diagnosed is a different sort of thing..)

it is a case-by-case situation, but i generally don’t think this is something that should be encouraged

I feel like people are too sensitive around any form of fake claiming. I’m not saying that fake claiming is good and that people should listen to everyone who tells you your faking but hear some people out depending on what they’re saying.

If someone’s coming at you with “You’re not a real system. You’re faking it for attention.” Don’t listen to them. Their goal is to hurt you, and they don’t really care about helping people with OSDDID.

If someone is saying “Hey, based on the way you’ve explained your symptoms, I don’t believe that OSDDID is the proper diagnosis for you.” Or “Hey instead of OSDDID, I think your symptoms match better with X. Have you checked that out before?” Hear them out. They’re trying to help you find a diagnosis that would better help you, in the case that OSDDID isn’t right.

There is so much misinformation on the internet that it can become confusing to try and tell which symptoms are actual OSDDID symptoms, and which are symptoms people online claim are OSDDDID solely based on their personal experiences. It is also hard to objectively record your own symptoms.

I’m not saying immediately take their word for it, and completely drop the idea of OSDDID, but listen and see if maybe they have a point and if looking into what they suggested could benefit you.

I feel like any time someone’s system hood is challenged they get defensive. I’m all for the idea of self diagnosis, but if we refuse to adapt that self diagnosis as new evidence arrives, we limit ourselves to the diagnosis we’ve given and lose out on information that could be beneficial to you.

As an example. If someone came up to me like “Hey. I don’t think you have DID. With the way you’ve described your symptoms I think BPD is a better diagnosis for you.” I’ll look into BPD and maybe it does fit my symptoms and I realize I don’t have DID, or I realize I have both DID and BPD. Or it doesn’t fit my symptoms and I stick with my DID diagnosis.

I guess the better way to explain this, if someone fake claims your system, in a way that shows they’re genuinely trying to help you, hear them out. Take what they say with a grain of salt, and do more research. If I was misdiagnosis my symptoms, I’d want someone to tell me because how am I supposed to better myself and my life if I’m trying to adapt my life to the wrong diagnosis?

#ash and val #ash.txt #valentine.txt #firefly flickers #osddid

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Transfem to Transmasc solitary must exist as much as any trans solidarity must exist.

Protect my boys.

#<333

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There is now a bill (HR 5371: Choices for Increased Mobility Act) seeking to expand the type of wheelchair material that insurance will cover. Insurances right now cover aluminium frames, and do not cover titanium wheelchairs. Titanium is a LOT more durable resulting in less cost/replacements and absorbs more shock on bumps which can be a very important thing for people with spine or hip issues.

Please contact your representatives if at all possible! There are scripts in this link:

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I appreciate "just some dude"-type of masculine aesthetic and comIetely understand why there is a lot of transmascs who lean towards it, but I just can't relate to it. I need more representation of transmasculine people who transition to be a dark academia history professor, an effeminate dandy, a mad scientist with mysterious sadness in his eyes, a gay politician, a Fyodor Dostoyevsky impersonator, a

#HI THERE #ME!

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polyfrag culture is gatekeepers, gatekeepers, and more gatekeepers. who are they? how many? I don't know, they never show their hand unless things are dire.

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#best in the queueniverse

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polyfrag culture is a fragment not wanting to share the Secrets™ they hold because it’s the only reason they haven’t been put dormant and that’s scary to them

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#best in the queueniverse