#anyway now anytime i have like an emotional reaction to anything afam related i think abt my friend

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if ur grace and u see this no u dont mention of police brutality but otherwise nothing too sketch

#i hate being so easily swayed lmao #like honestly just because i have an adverse emotional reaction to things sometimes doesn't mean that like #it's a BAD reaction u know?? #like yea it's a bad reaction but maybe it's a reaction that i want or feel i need?? #anyway now anytime i have like an emotional reaction to anything afam related i think abt my friend #telling me i should drop my afam major in this undergrad #im listening to the janelle monae song on repeat rn to write my piece on it and i took a minute to go look up a nme i didnt know #and read about how she died and like of course i teared up a 7year old girl was shot by police #fucking of course i have a bad reaction to that u know?? #but just because i get emotional like. reading abt racism n shit doesn't mean the best idea is for me to drop my afam major #idk like i really cannot id why i feel like it's SO necessary to do my afam major without like betraying that im not #exactly who i present myself as #like i am honest abt it w some ppl to a degree but ive never told anyone the entire reason im an afam major #like ugh i could never articulate it but that is the only time i really feel like she crossed a boundary but #i cannot articulate WHY it felt so awful. u know. like. #ugh. i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it #im not gonna drop my afam major lol