#anyway yeah let me overshare about the rsd to focus on that it was so silly i walked with him to his work and he said goodbye a bit rushed

[hartenlust]

this is also just partially because i got rsd this afternoon from the guy im seeing but also im right and i should get to kill

#op #literally the horror of communicating your desire #and also the horror of people not doing so #anyway yeah let me overshare about the rsd to focus on that it was so silly i walked with him to his work and he said goodbye a bit rushed #which . he was literally late for work and we were standing in front of the open door with us being very visible for the other employees #so makes super sense #but my brain's like no hihi he hates you #like he wasnt the one who invited me over #planning on initiating more physical contact next time i should communicate because he Is autistic but i dont think hes touch repulsed but #yknow communication consent etc #hanging out with him is very fun though #i feel a bit floundering sometimes but ill find my footing and its worth the effort to do so because like i said . its really fun #and hes hot as fuck #if you read this far . does anyone have any date ideas #we're going to bind books together & make . miku binders lol #but thats a bit of a project & more effort #i think just coming over again & bringing my laptop so we can watch hannib/al (filtered 4 tags) further but in the evening is also good #but if someone does have a date idea thats swagalicious #his couch sucks though like his apartment is super fancy because he hires it from like old people who live there #but are now fucked off to somewhere #but yeah its very fancy but the couch is also fancy which means its pretty comfortable but super bad for cuddling which didnt help #anyway im also scared he follows me on tumblr LMAO #if this sounds too like something you did this afternoon. dont let me know <3 #i rlly dont have date ideas i started with museum and now im blank #maybe a picnic somewhere. go to the beach #okay bye im gonna finish star/struck now