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#anyways I’m literally less than five seconds my heartbeat shot up to 144 bpm so. fun <3 my lucky number 44 wouldn’t have it any other way
peapod20001
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I wonder how many times I’ve googled whether I’m having a panic attack or an anxiety attack...
#vent
#hohohahhaoho anyways
#I am sooooo bad responding to things....
#anyways I’m literally less than five seconds my heartbeat shot up to 144 bpm so. fun <3 my lucky number 44 wouldn’t have it any other way
#anyways I need to cry but I can’t cry so you understand. I’m pacing my room and standing with locked knees
#and trying not to fumble or bump into things while makin my sister a snack while smilin and being normal <3
#do u understand. ough what is with TODAY whhhhh. is it the aderall?? did the adderall fuck me up today?? or ?? wha??
#oghghgg why am I so sweaty JUST in my pits like that’s the WORST spot to be sweaty in
#kitty is here <3 she can sense when I’m crazy 🤪🤪
#I’m at 160 now <3 ogohohoo ahhhhh I can’t lay down right like that the one thing you shouldn’t do with a fast heart rate
#hoho anyways the crippling fear of not being who I need to be for the people I need in order to be
#sounds chaotic and strange cus of phrasing but. you understand
#anyways my heart doesn’t even get like this when I’m like. performing a full page monologue in front of my peers
#I can pretend to be a cat for a minute and a half and tell the dog to stay in their place and not get into mine
#uhmmm yea idk I want people to feel comfortable being serious around me and prove I’m the friend to go to for things or be the one who under
#understands. but I always feel like. a pariah. is that the word? idk. when I feel confronted with things all I can do is like. run away. cry
#suffer alone cus it’s what I deserve. yeaaaa I’m going insane can you tell I think this is the first time since like. February where I feeL
#SO bad ugh idk what. I did this to myself the fuck?? haha. hope it doesn’t stress me to hair loss and skin picking and disorderd eating and
#bad (or should I say worse HA) sleep habits. mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm sorry my problems are minuscule to others and I haven’t had a day of
#any real discrimination or struggle in my life
#i have everything I need. all I have to worry about is doing class work and attending lectures and watching plays. I don’t have to get thing
#a myself or worry about food or a place to live. wooofff uhmmm. I wish I had someone here to squeeze me until I don’t feel like crying any
#more. oh I feel so bad what the hell. and my nail is breaking ahahaha imagine. a life where my biggest problem I have to face is
#a nail breaking mhmhmhaha
#haha when you hold in your tears so hard your nose drenches your chin. sorry that’s gross ahaha idk what I’m doing flooding your dash with.
#whatever this is. I’ll try to stop now. sorry
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