#anyways i was told completely new information abt someone getting stalked back then so thats wild

[butt-puncher]

I wish that I was more

#sad hours at the huskin bee #personal #graduating soon and the animation department is collecting photos of everyone in the drive #and seeing all these group photos of everyone in the program makes me realize how distant i am from them #and how close knit everyone else has become... #ive never been good at making friends and within like the first few weeks of school it was like everyone got to know each other #and the few friends i made in the program left after the first year #i wish my social anxiety wasnt so bad i tried harder to make friends in college #also i have an essay due on monday and i might just not do it #or itll be really half assed #ive been doing well so far in that class so if i dont do it i think the least id get is a C #idk maybe i can still make friends w these ppl after college somehow but itd still feel weird bc i had a completely different shm experience #than they had #ahhhh #i can imagine a future reunion where ppl will talk to be about old drama that was big among this giant friend group #that consists of most people in my year that ill have no idea what theyre talking abt #bc im never in the loop abt anything ever lol #this actually happened at my hs animation reunion except i actually knew and talked to most ppl in that class #i wasnt like super close to most of them but i had a few closeish friends #and i know one of those friends probably werent/arent in the know #also like i did hear abt relationship drama back in the day bc gossip spread p easily #anyways i was told completely new information abt someone getting stalked back then so thats wild #and apparently there was a super handsome guy in our class that i for some reason have zero recollection of #point is i be the last person to know something and if i know smth then everyone probably already knew #which is annoying. i wanna hear gossip too. even in my own family my sisters will tell each other and our mom about shit that went down w #their friends or our cousins and i only hear abt it when im in the room #so i end up hearing a lot but never directly and sometimes not in full #man i shouldve gone on more college field trips #shouldve done a lot more in life that my insecurities get the way of #tbh i genuinely think i might have a form of undiagnosed anxiety; tism; or some other mental disorder