#anyways todayyy was gooood.

[onepiexe]

had an insanely good day at work

#logbook #but then the drive there and back was bonkers. nearly hit 2 pedestrians. #and then there was some dude driving like a tiny cement filler or maybe a tractor idk. #other stuff abd ppl. but whew. glad im home safe lol. #anyways todayyy was gooood. #i texted c and we had a lil chat. then i texted the mst supervisor for nnl and offered to talk to her when i come by this week. #to which she greatly agreed. so i hope it goes well. i'll do that thurs i've decided. #and then i texted grc (aka the c*sta rep) and found out hes in town this week. so he asked when im working and said he wants to talk #when i get off work and have a chat 😭 augh. im going to miss working with them. hes coming by hl tmrw. #and THEN i told him he should talk to mst at nnl and told her i said for him to find her if he has time. #so i hope it works out. debating if i text grj too. #ummm what else. ds told me THE funniest but also saddest story abt a previous holiday she had. #yeah idk it was good and then o texted me and my day was kinda ruined. but its NOT her fault. actually mad at mst lol. #im going to bed so i can get up and be at work and im planning to work on my info booklet im making. #gn everybody<3

[zak-shit]

10.11.22

another night where i need to make an entry but do not feel like pulling out the journal. I should, but its been way too long since I've pulled it out. It's quicker for me to quickly pound my computer to get out whatever I need to.

arriving home, wanting to talk to my mom, but having to push my patience sooo thin because shes drunk and that can be like talking to a brick wall! my patience was boiled over when she told me the 6th time to take a quick shower. I told her I wanted to wash my hair. but still "dont take too long" not because of a water waste or anything. she told me " youre off tomorrow, you can do that tomorrow" *eye roll* its because willow is laying in her bed. I mean literally shes dead asleep snoring like?? you want me to hurry up... its just selfish in my eyes. i just say "okayyy" no problem, whatever. I bought my favorite body wash, really wanted to wash my hair. but its fine. I'll hurry. she then wants to start saying things like " you know how long its been since I took a long nice shower???" It took alot of me not to ask her aggressively why she wants to make me feel bad?

I've worked all week, doubles the last two days. Skipped a shower the night before, and just washed my face in worry she would be some type of way about it.

I took a 6 minute shower.

honestly my showers normally only last about that long. maybe an inch longer. I dont wash my hair often. so its just a scrub of the body and a quick wash of the face.

anyways im ranting about it because I want to get it out of my system, today has actually been a good day. I've been gone alot more, working and at Alyssas alot. and ive had a few moments of like, wow I really dont need meds, like things are gooood! until I'm home. and then its time to pop a fucking pill and be dulled tf out. its sad.

but work was chill todayyy, i finally got some time with my ruby and it was so nice, she gave me a new set of nails, we got starbucks. I got my first matcha! and it was to DIE for! also got my first pair of slides today! they are PINK! like r u KIDDING

kinda in the mood to hop into the sims and build a lil bit, I have no idea what this new "legacy" mode exactly does to my game.

Willow may be getting her first period soon, I've got diapers on hand incase needed... lil girl is going to become a WOMAN. Once I get all my finances settled, and priorities taken care of, I would like to get her in some obedience school <3

I'm hopefull tomorrow will be a good day, filled with laughs and calm loving energy. hoping to have a productive morning and a super enjoyable evening with my girl gang <3

#rant #matcha #shower