#anyways. hi im just talking to myself sorry for trigun posting <3

[boyfriendyke]

trigun stampede is insane cuz it's like. knives shows up in episode three. EPISODE THREE. i've finished 19 episodes of the og trigun and i havent seen knives outside of flashbacks. wdym youre putting him in episode three.

#im like three episodes away from w***** fucking dying #and im stalling by watching a bit of stampede #but im not gonna finish the 3rd episode im too worried abt like. idk knives mentioning spoilers. i think i'll just finish the og first lmao #but like. tons of mixed feelings about stampede so far #hate the pacing !! but i do enjoy that its better at explaining the world and shit cuz the og hasnt rlly #i also think that vash's n meryl's designs r rlly cute. i actually like vash's coat better than the og. miss the old glasses tho #i actually just like meryls characterization so far i think its kind of an improvement ngl #but god. GOD. why r we going so fucking fast #trigun #anyways. hi im just talking to myself sorry for trigun posting <3 #jc.txt #ok edit ive finished og trigun so now im releasing this from drafts #:]

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

if anyone needs me i will be rewatching trigun 98 and tristamp over and over until my brain explodes

#had a bad time in therapy today sigh #first time i cried in front of the new therapist wooooooooo #and we havent even started talking about the painful stuff yet. how tf am i gonna handle that #(spoiler: im not <3 we dont have to talk abt it if i never bring it up) #also being. slammed with nostalgia (/neg) and i cannot get rid of it and it fucking sucks #got a. bad taste in my mouth. from like. everything rn #anyway. if anyone needs me i will be bolting myself into a shitty tin can and sending myself to the bottom of the sea. #not to see the titanic bc im not dumb and full of hubris. but just like. in general #im down there now. i want to fucking explode #sorry bad joke <3 i wanna kms so bad. i wanna wake up tomorrow and be in a universe that is Not This One #aaughrggghrghr. im angry and j dont know what im angry at . i wanna. fling myself into space #so instead i will watch trigun and if i start posting about max in the next day or so well can you blame me. #i hope someone draws him for artfight. specifically. hes rlly cool #i have his page uploaded already but im sooooo bad at making descriptions #oh fuck i also learned how to fucking tag things on artfight now omg. i didnt know that was a thing. #how did i do three years of this shit and not TAG anything. what the fuck #anyway. wish i was a guy covered in blood rn. maybe i should watch hannibal instead #is it time to bring out ol reliable and watch the stab scene from mizumono on a loop again #and perhaps i will listen to sodikken misery meat and people eater. idk. spice it up a little #girls when they say they want to be held: screenshot of the way hannibal holds wills face before gutting him like a fish #im feeling rlly normal rn if you cant tell