#april-october was pretty good. i had some weird spark of motivation in terms of art all that time and it didnt even break once

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happy new years to myself. and my weird online friends and mutuals

#this past December has been hell for me honestly. #i hope 2024 isnt as bad #ugh hold on i just need to recap this past year in the tags #the start of 2023 sucked a lot for me. i almost killed myself!!! #april-october was pretty good. i had some weird spark of motivation in terms of art all that time and it didnt even break once #and then november-december sucked too because of a falling out with certain friends and then december has been a dystopian nightmare and #family related problems going on too #honestly the whole year has had a lot of ups and downs To Be Honest #im sure 2024 isnt going to be any better but heres to hoping i guess #another edit to the thing about the friends falling out. they recently invited me back to the “”“Group Chat”“” for new year eve and #ive realized that just being around those people is so mind numbingly absurd #sometimes i realize that I AM NOT OBLIGATED TO BE AROUND PEOPLE I DO NOT LIKE FOR THE BENEFIT OF MAINTAINING FRIENDSHIPS. #like i should have realized this long ago that. some people you might be friends with/were friends with are just bad and annoying people! #i am not obligated to talk to stay with them for whatever reason they want me there for #UGH please you are not obligated to read this and TBH i should have just posted this to my alt