#are newly dating and both truly terrible at sex so alex decides he wants to learn to top properly

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ϟ tell me what moment/scene in [fic] made you sicko in the window.jpg to read and i’ll tell you which scene made me feel that way to write

For ME my sicko in the window moment in made a hundred good stories was Lewis cockwarming Alex so lewis could fuck him again… GOD Alex did not know what what he was in the middle of

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THANK YOU 😭😭😭 genuinely coming up with that scene was what tipped me over from "maybe i'll play around with this idea and see what happens" to "oh no now i have to finish this." like i literally looked back at my first brainstorming doc and there's a bullet point that says "engine failures, tire blowouts, coming too early - the body as machine" that's bolded and underlined lmao like. apparently 1-year-ago-me also felt insane sicko in the window about the whole thing too

in the interest of giving a different answer though i will say that i did feel crazy while writing all the little seb/lewis moments during the threesome (special shoutout to seb fingering lewis while he cockwarms and also ofc lewis's mini breakdown before he sucks seb off lol). i LOVE outsider pov especially for a relationship like this with so much history where you can pick and choose little details that never actually explicitly say anything, but are so clearly dancing around the edges of something that it becomes very obvious what the shape of the thing they're not saying is.

#i love going back through old drafts of fics.....imo my ideal fic fest would be to have everyone write whatever they want and then post #snippets of bullet point outlines/first/second/third drafts/etc along w the finished fic #i love to see how an idea evolves over the course of writing it! it fascinates me #anyways saying all this bc going back through the first draft reminded me that my initial concept for this fic was 'alex and george #are newly dating and both truly terrible at sex so alex decides he wants to learn to top properly #and through a series of wacky shenanigans ends up having seb and lewis both volunteer to teach him #by letting him practice topping both of them' #my only regret abt pivoting is losing the line 'the only thing more embarrassing than a tabloid headline tomorrow reading #'NEW WILLIAMS DRIVER ALEX ALBON GAY?' would be one that said 'NEW WILLIAMS DRIVER ALEX ALBON GAY /AND/ BAD AT SEX?' #asks #sionisjaune