#as far as we know Heaven isn’t real/isn’t for Fiends and Devils yet he’s modeled after heavenly hosts/messengers? cruel shit

[blueish-bird]

burnout is sapping my hyperfixation of creative energy, but not to worry! I’m still thinking about Aki and Angel an incredibly abnormal amount

#at this rate I’ll have fics ready to publish in a couple years time /hj #their individual characters as well as their dynamic together?? gnawing on a chair leg about it #I wish I could put everything into words good but it’s all just arghgfjgkf #capitalist realism/adhd+autism/Gender/doomed by the narrative/hurt on accident love on purpose/deconstructing systems of oppression shit idk #whatever they’re good and I see myself in them but they’re also Really Meaningful characters outside of being nice to project onto #don’t even get me started on Angel’s contradictory existence like what the hell Fujimoto /pos #Devils being creatures that draw power from fear but (Biblical) angels being creatures whose opening lines are ‘do not be afraid’ #as far as we know Heaven isn’t real/isn’t for Fiends and Devils yet he’s modeled after heavenly hosts/messengers? cruel shit #he appears more humanoid than other Fiends yet that doesn’t negate the fact that He Is A Fiend. and of course The Gender #and there’s the personal sinkhole of unpacking how ‘fear’ is defined by Christianity (in relation to God and holy entities) #existential purgatory all-around for this guy #i ‘like’ to imagine that humans go to and stay in heaven while devils are trapped in the cycle of hell and earth for eternity #and by ‘like’ I mean it makes me go a little bonkers so I don’t think about it #Angel being peak aro/ace coded. I love it. #sorry anyways #csm #my csm thoughts #meposting