#bahhh. i have a dr appointment in a couple weeks and i'm PLANNING to bring it up

[ternaryflower53]

there's like at least 10 posts i've discarded or put in drafts that are just. variations on how do i stop being tired

my brain is. melting. i'm tired all the time. start crashing at 6 or 7pm. i sleep 8 hours but dragging myself to classes feels insurmountable. going to bed past 11pm makes me thinking about dying the next day. i constantly want to nap and also physically can't nap. sometimes i just sit and want to cry because i'm so tired.

and meanwhile i'm convinced this is just me being overdramatic. everyone is tired, tern, stop complaining. it's not like you're sleeping for 14 hours a day. it's just depression. just deal with it.

i don't know. it feels awful and i genuinely don't know if i'm making it up and if i'm NOT it's still probably just depression and i have NO idea where to start with that. i'm so fucked.

#do not reblog #depression tw #ask to tag #lmao i was looking up whether meds help with physical symptoms like this and it was like #'a common symptom of antidepressants is fatigue :)' #like FUCK that's the WHOLE REASON i want help #dunno if it's physical activity related bc that like. varies wildly #sometimes i walk 500 feet from class to the library and i just sit and try to regain my energy #but i can do karate class for an hour pretty fine #bahhh. i have a dr appointment in a couple weeks and i'm PLANNING to bring it up #but i'm half convinced they're just gonna tell me the stupid sleep hygiene things and ignore me #if i'm lucky i'll get told to go to therapy and then be left hanging with no way to actually GET therapy #sob. genuinely don't know what a normal amount of feeling tired is anymore.