#bc it was me and my boss and a couple professors and i dont do well in these group situations anything so i spent a lotta time spaced out

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#the burdent of not being understood. its annoying and i dont like it. also its my fault #because if u say something serious in a light tone ppl dont kno wtf to do. prob bc they dont kno if ur delusional or not and like dont #wanna upset u. but then its like annoying bc they still walk away worried and im like ok neither of us r happy bc u dont get how serious #thjs is but i cant tell u how serious it is without making u worried. and y should i make u worry if u can't fuckinf do anything abt it? #so its just annoying. which is to say i went to a retirement lunch today and it was as awkward as i imagined #bc it was me and my boss and a couple professors and i dont do well in these group situations anything so i spent a lotta time spaced out #not hearing anyone bc the noise in the room was messy and my brain was peeling away from my body. but whatever i was there. and my boss #drove us both and on the way back she started the. im worried abt u talk. which i feel like she was too hesitant abt it. which like i get #bc its awkward to bring up but like i dont give a fuck so idk i feel like u gotta start those conversations like. this is how watching u #makes me feel. idk whatever. and i was honest but like it was a 5min car ride so i didnt have thr time to be like ok heres the deal. ya #kno? so now im all annoyed bc my brain is fucking unbearable when i feel like i havent made my thoughts clear. and now its like. do i bring #it back up? or just let it go? whats to be gained by talking abt it? all that i have to say is upsetting bc im very aware im being self #destructive. thats the point. i get boried and my brain only lets me do like 2 things so i use those things to make myself insane. bc at #least then i can observe the symptoms of the stress im exherting on myself. and i kno that not good bc idk how to stop and ppl r always #like u gotta relax. what will help u relax? and im like u dont fucking understand. i cant regulate thr amount i like things. if i like #something i like it so much it becomes stressful. and i like drawing but its not relaxing. its a thing i have to do and its stressful bc im #constantly thinking abt making things perfect and never meeting thst mark. my happiest memories arent even happy moments theyre just times #where my brain stopped for a second and i could just breathe for a minute. so like i cant relax. i dont like anything a normal amount so #the solution must be medication. but my brain has decided im not allowed to fix this problem until i move away so like 🙃 and like i was #giving little bits of this in the car but its like lady i kno its a problem. ive known its a problem for years. the self awareness doesnt #help. except that it keeps me from doing anything extremely bad bc for me if i at least kno where it comes from i can b like ah yes. this #is fucking stupid lol. but i dunno how me sharing all this helps bc im sure it only raises the worry. but like its fine. i mean its not but #like ya kno. and i was kinda explaining how upsetting it is for me to have my schedule changed without warning even if its for things other #ppl would see as good and i wasnt thst firm abt it so it was: but i can't just do nothing for u! and i was like ugh fuck it fine whatever. #and like do i bring that back up bc it is like a respect my boundaries thing but like i feel like if i were anyone else it would be good #to drag someone out of their comfort zone but im being dragged into situations i find profoundly isolating bc i cant seem to function in #groups. ugh its just fucking annoying bc i dont want her to feel bad. i appreciate the effort but like ugh its exhausting. whatever. it was #anyway. im just annoyed thst i should have explained things better. also im annoyed thst i constantly forget most things taste bland and #then im annoyed when i hsve to eat bland things. i think my nose doesnt work right bc i csnt smell much either #unrelated

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How about College AU with the RFA and Minor Trio? Like what their major would be, roommate, stuff like that

I don’t know muchabout collage majors, so I’m sorry if you were looking for specifics. Also Iwasn’t sure if you wanted a MC to be included or not, but I included themanyway. The RFA isn’t running by the way. 

Yoosung

Yoosung was taking a course in     order to become a vet     

The work was brutal

Though he loved it, and he was     sure he wanted to help pets    

It was still brutal

Shares a dorm with Saeyoung &     Saeran

He goes to almost every class

Mainly because he’s scared of failing 

Has all nighters too frequently

Can often be found crying in     the library at 3am as he writes an essay 

He tries to join astronomy club

But he can’t keep up with them     because of his gaming addiction    

Saeyoung fuels this addiction

Saeyoung also messes with him     by hacking into the game and getting a bunch of rare stuff for his own     character     

“I have to defeat him! I     can’t let Saeyoung defeat me!”    

There goes Yoosungs life. 

He meets MC in his class

And

Oh god is he in trouble

Finds he can’t focus in class     because of you

Saeyoung convinces him to talk     to you about a problem he’s having    

So he catches you in the     library one night

“Hey, you’re MC right?     You’re in my vet corse! I was wondering if you could help me with     this…”

He tries to be sly but he’s red     in the face the entire time    

Your friendship and more     blossoms from there on out.    

Also 100% shows you off to     everyone once you get together    

Jaehee

Business & hospitality     major     

She’s a fucking boss

She’s bomb at studying, and you     best bet she gets top of the class    

She works for that shit

She shares a dorm with a girl     she doesn’t know very well, and doesn’t really talk to due to conflicting     interests.     

She’s super invested in the     coffee club at school    

To the point where she becomes     the leader of the group!     

You are also in the coffee club     and you instantly connect with Jaehee, so naturally you two become     friends.     

She’s had friends, but not     friends like you.     

You also met everyone else     through Jaeheee

Jaehee knew Zen, V and Jumin,     and through them she knew Yoosung, Saeyoung and Saeran. 

And some guy named Vanderwood

She has all nighters frequently     as well

Goes to all classes on time     unless she’s sick

Even then she gets someone to     send her notes

A year or so through her     college experience, after she’s calmed down a little about the idea of     college

She realises there’s something     she feels about you that isn’t… just friendship 

She doesn’t say anything, she’s     afraid of your reaction    

You aren’t stupid, you know the     looks she gives you

So you make the first move

It’s slow

But it’s nice

Zen

Drama and Literature major

Teachers pet + ladies man

You’ve seen Monsters University     right? Well, he’s like the Sullivan of the college. 

He has his own fan club

Jaehee takes part in said fan     club     

His roommates are … Jumin and     V!

It’s a little bit of a     nightmare     

His relationship with Jumin is     pretty much the same relationship as cats and dogs…

However

Jumin is very good at calming     Zen down when he gets angry, and bring him back to earth when he’s too     full of himself     

And Zen is very good at     grounding Jumin when he gets a little out of hand, or his ego is too     large.     

And V just tries to make     everyone happy

So it works

He doesn’t study excessively 

“God gave me a gift! Why     would I need to study?”    

He changed this thought after     he failed his first test    

You thought he was a little     arrogant     

He thought you were cute

He needed help with a few     things so you offered to tutor him 

After a few tutoring sessions     he began to flirt, a lot    

He did his best to impress you 

And eventually he just made his     move

Power couple!!!!

You still help him study

Jumin

Business major 

Not that he really needs it

He already knows all there is     to know about business so he’s top of his class

He also doesn’t really need to     study     

Wants a cat but can’t have one     in his dorm     

Also his roommate is allergic

Not that he cares all that much

Because he doesn’t have to     study, and he doesn’t belong to any clubs, his time is consumed by     meetings with his father and arguments with Zen or long chats with V 

You catch his eye when he sees     you struggling slightly in the business class

So like a gentleman he offers     his help

Spoiler: Jumin is a very bad     tutor     

Okay he’s not terrible he just     isn’t good at explaining things on a level you can understand

You appreciate the help though

He flat out asks you if you’d     like to have dinner with him    

No tip toeing around that

You accept, and after a few     more dates and a bit more horrible tutoring you two become a thing

Zen is shocked and wonders if     he’s paying you

Saeyoung

hacking major

Is there a hacking major?

Computer science & programming     major

Top of the class but rarely     shows up

When he does he’s unusually     reserved and quiet in the back of the class, not talking to anyone

Shares his dorm with his     brother and Yoosung

Eats like a true college     student

He studies but it doesn’t look     like studying

Like he’ll be on his computer,     and it will look like he’s playing a game

But he’s actually looking     through the games code    

This is also how he messes with     Yoosung

Should he hear even a peep out     of someone about Saeran in a bad way    

They can kiss their grades     goodbye

Admittedly hacked into the     schools system before in order to change Saerans grade

You meet him when you sit at     the back of class one day because all of the front spots were taken

And you realise that Saeyoung     is not quiet, or reserved, he just doesn’t have anyone to talk to

Because he doesn’t shut the     fuck up when you sit next to him    

Everything out of his mouth is     a meme or a sly comment about the professors work ethic 

Unfortunately you were     struggling a little with the class    

“Alright then smart guy,     if you know so much then teach me”

“Deal”

Well that was easy

His personality just gets     goofier every time you see him    

Eventually you just become a     thing

You both act like it wasn’t a     big deal

But it was

Now he helps you complete the     course and you listen to his stupid jokes! 

Saeran

I saw someone headcannon Saeran     as an art major

I agree

Art Major

He shows up to class a lot but     sometimes leaves during lectures 

Sometimes it’s boredom,     sometimes it’s panic attacks.    

Studies but not intensely

He doesn’t really want to     become an artist, he’s just always liked art

And he’s pretty good at it

He just had to pick a major and     art happened to be one of the first things he thought of

He shares his room with his     brother and Yoosung

He likes Yoosung, but he’s     waaaayyyy too gullible    

He also doesn’t talk to any of     Saeyoungs other friends that much, he tries though

He meets you when he sits next     to you in class one day    

Normally you’re at the back by     yourself, so your comments can go unnoticed

Not today

“Are you fucking- this is     not a hand”

“What the fuck is     Picasso”

“If I don’t eat dinners     for the next week I can afford new paints”

He looks at you strangely, you     catch his look, you smile and put your head down

He looks over to see you     writing ‘fuck colour theory’ over and over again

“I can help you with that     if you’d like”

You were surprised 

You accepted his help     nonetheless     

because

Fuck colour theory

It took some time, and patience     and a forceful push from Saeyoung    

But eventually he confessed 

Artsy couple!!

You often doodle on each     other’s arms

V

photography Major

Obviously

Studies hard, but not too hard

Wonderful student and friend to     all

Golden boy

Shares his room with Zen and     Jumin

Which can be overwhelming at     times

But they’re both very nice, to     him at least, and they do try to get along sometimes

He wouldn’t be in any clubs

He prefers going out and taking     pictures, or hanging out with Jumin    

You met through class

You were paired up for a     project together

“One will be the muse, and     the other the photographer”    

Theoretically, you should be     the muse, right?

Ohhhh no

You force kindly ask him to be     the muse for this project    

He’s too nice so he says yes

The two of you joke and laugh     the entire time     

You manage to get some lovely     shots of him smiling and laughing, when he things you aren’t taking the     picture

Sly V probably managed to     skilfully ask you on a date    

“We should do this again,     however you are to be the muse next time”

“It’s a deal”

“How about its a     date?”

Sly

He helps you with studies and     is always willing to be your muse    

Also he has a lot of pictures     of you

Cutest couple!!

Vanderwood

listen

I don’t know

I don’t fucking know what he’d     do

My headcannon, if he wasn’t     dragged into the mess of the Agency, would be he went to college to major     in psychology and chemistry    

I DONT KNOW!!!!!!! Let’s just     go with it

Psychology & Chemistry     Major!

He’s very reserved, he just     gets what he needs to done    

Doesn’t fuck around

He only really talks to     Saeyoung and sometimes Saeran, other than that he’s usually alone

A lot of people are weary of     him 

He lives in a dorm alone     because no one wanted him as a roommate because he works better alone

You met bc neither of you were     looking where you were going and you ran into each other

“Watch it” He growled     at you

Excuse me?

Excuse me??

“You watch it, you’re the     one walking around like a fucking mountain, don’t expect me to step out of     your way, asshole”    

The sass was amazing

He literally had to watch you     watch away because what the fuck just happened?? 

Of course, Murpheys Law,     Saeyoung saw all of it and teased Vanderwood for his ‘crush' 

He punched him

Gradually the two of you ran     into each other more, around campus, at the library, going in and out of     lecture rooms and hallways    

Until you just sat down next to     him in the library and asked for his help on your chemistry assignment

“You’re in my chemistry     lectures??”

“Ya have been for a year     thanks for noticing”    

It’s a slow, painful process     but the two of you become friends    

And then more…

Saeyoung prides himself on     being right about the two of you     

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