#because i see it as some weird boygirl in the mirror but thats not what i am...

[blushft]

just looked in a mirror. why did no one tell me how fucking HOT i am???!?!?!?!

#so detached from my own body that i become attracted to myself #i dont see it as me - i see it as that hot guy who exists in my camera app and in most bathrooms #cws?? #derealization #depersonalization #if this needs any more lmk #this is a normal trans experience yes?? #not seeing me as me but thinking my reflection is hot?? #because i see it as some weird boygirl in the mirror but thats not what i am... #I ALSO... god ok i look at my stereotypically “masculine” friends and.. i feel dysphoria from it?? #like theyre so tall and big and deep voiced and shit and i either feel like a TWINK or a chick #idk which is worse #SLASH JOKING no offense to twinks or women.... #also if ur still reading these tags and ur trans pls help. #is this normal or am i being a bit of a freak. #ianriley