#because it felt unachievable so best to kill the agent of desire as jenny holzer said

[existentialcrisistime]

almost cried when chatting to a customer today who said they'd recently started T, and I think that's probably a sign I need to get myself on T like yesterday pls

#for real though it's on my wishlist for this year but I am v nervous about talking to the people who make it happen #don't want to enter my 30s without some bit of medical transition going on #but also im having to actively work through the internalised terf rhetoric of oh no what if going on T is bad #like damn it can't be worse than not being on T for me and even the 'bad' bits like acne would feel affirming #ready to live my best gross teenage boy life at 28 #and also! I've wanted to go on T for ages but it's only over the past couple years I allowed myself to want ut #because it felt unachievable so best to kill the agent of desire as jenny holzer said #but now I'm like nope I'm too old not to live my truth #anyway #Nic stuff