#because then I'd be the entitled one expecting neurotypical behavior (reciprocation) or whatever.

[sidheboggle]

Also my bf didn't come down for Chinese because he shares his car with his family and they used it for something yesterday. I guess he didn't even think to Uber or Lyft down or yknow, use the other fucking car they have.

I ordered myself some Subway with the uber eats card I got from the doggy daycare interview, but I'm just retroactively pissed off. All week I was looking forward to Chinese with him. I treated myself but I'm about to start fucking working soon and Sundays will be my primary off day starting next week, now planning will be even more impossible. And he couldn't even find a way to have Chinese with me or something. Or just come at night and go somewhere else with me. Like, I'm legitimately trying to wrap my head around why he can't seem to find a way to make shit happen ever unless I take responsibility and pressure him to be an adult. No fucking thanks.

#ramblings #between this and one sided sex and being too much of a pussy to just ask for money I'm like. #ready to dump him once I get my first paycheck. at this point I basically meet my own needs while he twists himself into a pretzel #trying to meet mine and always failing. I can tell him what I want all I want but if he cant or wont do it he. cant or wont fucking do it #autism or not 🙄 #again this is why I'm so skeptical of communication advice on this site. like... #are people communicating poorly or are you just unable to fulfill the request and making them out to be a problem. #''I want to eat Chinese with you for Valentines Day.'' and then he proceeds to just not make a plan b unless I do...c'mon #thats pretty straightforward! he just didn't or couldn't think of another way to come down. but I can't pressure him #because then I'd be the entitled one expecting neurotypical behavior (reciprocation) or whatever.