#become a marathoner and a famius professional artist are both you speaking to yourself. its not an angel and devil on ur shoulder those are

[potpiehead]

I literally need to change everything because oh my godddddddd

#always trust how you feel about your life after 12:30 am. thats when u are truly worn down by the stress of day-to-day life AND the #reality of the actions you need to take to do radical shit in your life is less of an obstacle :P #your intolerance of your current circumstances is absolute minimum and your aversion to the other option and all that entails is also #absolute minimum #when u just get out of bed and get to partake in the mundane enjoyable things of your actually very bleak life u are fully distracted from #the reality of it #that inner voice that tells u that everything sucks at 2 in the morning and the inner voice that tell you u can get a masters degree and #become a marathoner and a famius professional artist are both you speaking to yourself. its not an angel and devil on ur shoulder those are #thoughts coming from a place of desperation and u should at least write it down and sleep on it and take it seriously #i just applied to a bunch of jobs and moved my school schedule around and im gonna drop the epic 2 weeks notice tomorrow #it feels all overwhelming and horrible but much much less bad now that ive taken at least one step. #the problem is i dont know what i want. well kind of. idk