#booooo I just wanna lay around and write and daydream about being loved :(

[crybaby-bkg]

I’m writing a long fic about being a singer in a speakeasy that’s always visited by mafia bkg and I am struggling SO BADDDD trying to figure out an ending. everything I come up with feels so unnecessary and SCHEWPID and it’s annoying omg I’ve been actively writing it for over a month and it never takes me this long to finish fics but GODDAMN!!!!!!! why is this so hard I’m gonna cry

#like I genuinely have no direction for it #and I don’t wanna force an idea but honestly I’m ready to finish it #I have like 8 other wips which isn’t like me at all #I typically get an idea and write it immediately and then move onto the next #but I’ve been struggling to write latelt #lately* bitch #and I think it’s bc this semester w stats has genuinely been so hard and draining #everything is such a struggle ugh this is so shitty #I also had a wedding meet cute fic I started which I expected to be like 2-3k words of just smut #and I couldn’t even finish it #I was genuinely so disappointed in myself omg #as I type this I realize this is just my seasonal depression lmfao this happens every year and I’m surprised and confused every time #anyway I’m about to reread all my old fics and that’ll hopefully give me some inspiration #also I wrote for shiggy for the first time EVER and I actually kinda fucked w it #I wanna write for touya more too I’m so in love with his stupid ass I wanna str*ngle him in love #okay I’m rapping sorry #I have to gts I have somewhere to go tomorrow and OF COURSE #I have to be the appointed MUA bc I said I was gonna do my own makeup >:( #which means I have to wake up early so we won’t be late >:( #booooo I just wanna lay around and write and daydream about being loved :( #—in store chit chat! 🍫