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Sun Sextile Pluto Natal

People brought into the world during the Sun sextile Pluto find it easier to express their individuality and the way they’re feeling about life in general. More than this, they’re able to see the dark side of things and to make sense of what’s happening, even if confused about their existence. Most of the time, such energy is beneficial for these natives because it makes it easier for them to determine what doesn’t do their life any good, which means they’re very capable of identifying negativity and eliminating it as well, together with any challenge. Those having the Sun sextile Pluto in their birth chart are usually feeling good in their skin, good at initiating new projects and transmitting their positive energy to others for them to feel the same as them.Since Pluto rules over transformation, it makes individuals born during the Sun sextile Pluto transit more aware of their own needs, compulsions and eager to become someone important.

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Happy Hump Day

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Moon opposite Midheaven Natal

Moon in Sagittarius in the 4th House opposite Midheaven in Taurus.

Having a loaded 4th House has made letting go of my difficult childhood and home life very difficult. It permeates every aspect of my life, like a slow growing disease. That’s slowly coming to an end and I will soon be liberated from the feelings of not being good enough, not being smart enough, the feelings of constantly being set up for failure. These emotions have tied me down for years, leaving me feeling so unfulfilled with life. I want to be something so much more than what everyone thinks I am, its getting past the break pedal of Saturn that stops me, that says to me in my head “no stop, you are a failure, you fail at life that’s what you are good at, you’re a loser”. This has caused me to cling to people I love, for fear of losing them, b/c security is important to me. If I am not getting the attention that I need, my mind starts to create things in my head and I start to become jealous, which leads to feeling not good enough and insecure, it’s a viscous and tiring cycle. It’s like I am constantly trying to solve my childhood issues all the time, and shit gets exhausting, but I have a loaded 4th House, how do you separate yourself from that stigma? 

Putting myself out there is almost painful for me. Unless it’s online where nobody knows me and I don’t have to physically talk to someone face to face, then it is easy for me. but putting myself out there face to face is scary for me. It’s not b/c I am shy but more so b/c I am insecure, unsure and afraid of the word “no”, or being socially awkward, or failure. I have been so dependent on others when it comes to my own self worth, which IS setting yourself up for failure without really realizing it. You CANNOT give someone that much power, nobody is perfect and people ARE going to let you down, but that doesn’t mean you are not good enough. 

Some positive qualities to this aspect gives this person with deep emotions, their family that they have created is strong, you will not know a momma bear like me, and don’t even tolerate other kids being mean to my kids. People with this aspect generally have a personality that is very nurturing and caring, I will take in kids, animals, people in need (although I have stopped with taking in people in need because they ALWAYS use me). I want to be the person I needed. 

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Waxing Crescent Moon 🌙 Nurture yourself and your new ideas ✨

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Wake & Bake

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Mars square North Node natal

With North Node square Mars, Mars-ruled talents and instinctual abilities are brought over that must be utilized in a harmonious way. If not, the dynamic and highly combustible Mars energy may turn inward, causing neurosis, obsession, or fighting some demon or adversary within. While there are excellent resources to draw from, the Mars energy is most in need of direction.

This aspect presents a delicate situation because you must learn to use the energy in a more diluted form than what is really possible. A sort of brake is applied to the degree of aggression you are allowed to express. You are learning to release the controlling energy at a gentler, more subdued or graceful pace. If you can't learn to curb these energies, it will be done for you, most likely in unfavorable circumstances.

Be careful of expressing very temperamental or angry feelings or becoming overly aggressive physically. Your health may start out as robust, but there is a tendency to put excessive strain on the body, which weakens it, causing eventual weariness or breakdown.

There is a tendency to find yourself on the disagreeing side of things. You may find that you arouse a lot of opposition in others because of this, feeling alienated in your values as a result. You might find yourself almost pre-disposed to acting on your own or making the decisions in group settings, upsetting the group dynamic with the way you do things.

You must learn to be less defensive, not everyone is out to get you or fight you, and you must stop using this as an excuse to be aggressively self-involved and inconsiderate of others’ values. To fulfill your soul’s purpose, channel your tendency to be defensive of your beliefs into more constructive channels.

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Sun CONJUNCT Neptune Natal

Sun conjunct Neptune natal makes you a very feeling, sensitive and caring person. You have a great imagination and experience a rich spiritual and dream life. Due to your heightened sensitivity to vibrational energy, there is great variability in how you deal with such an inflow of energy. This can range from spiritual enlightenment to paranoia, depending on fixed stars and other aspects to this conjunction. You are likely to be unselfish and even submissive as Neptune raises your ego above self-interest. You transcend primitive ego needs and desires as part of your ego melds into your surroundings. You become one with our partner, family, community, and to an extent even humanity.

With negative input early in life such as psychological or physical abuse, poverty, discrimination, etc., your ego will protect itself by withdrawing and hiding from the negative energy source. In such cases, you may feel lonely, abandoned, scared or victimized. To compensate for the loss of external input, your vivid imagination would create alternate realities in which you feel companionship, support, nourishment, and purpose. You may dream up characters that take on their own form in the spirit world.

Later on, this may lead to an inability to cope with reality, daydreaming, avoidance of responsibilities, lying, substance abuse or mental illness. The void can be filled with creative self-expression in the real world, such as religion, film, music, art, poetry, drama and role-play.Positive expression of this Sun conjunct Neptune will come naturally with good fixed star associations or other helpful aspects. Turning around early negative conditioning will involve slowly but surely stepping out of your bubble or security blanket to rejoin the real world outside. A trusted loved one would be invaluable in giving support and helping to set goals.

The ability to share yourself while still maintaining a healthy ego is key to dealing with this natal aspect. You must learn to set realistic boundaries so you share just enough to keep up healthy relationships but keep enough to sustain your own needs. The aim is confidence, vitality and a sense of purpose.Too much of a boundary will lead to the examples above of the withdrawn child. Not enough boundaries could lead to being overwhelmed by negative energies, loss of vitality and illness. Being selfish and caring at the same time will be a work in progress.

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Moon square Ascendant Natal

Moon in Sagittarius in the 4th House, Ascendant in Virgo. 

Individuals with this aspect can have emotional instability who are easily influenced by others. Self expression is difficult for these natives and putting it into action is never easy and they are pretty elusive and reserved. The emotional self and out self do not coexist harmoniously. I think for most of my life I never really understood my emotions or the emotions of others, setting y expectations of people too high (Virgo) and then getting confused as to why the other person could not meet them. It was let down after let down. I also found myself in lots of toxic relationships, vulnerability was never something I handled well. I have always had a problem with needing to help people who are broken, my personality just wants to nurture and protect people. Because of this aspect of my personality it makes me a magnet for negative, toxic people, and until recently I welcomed them all with open arms letting them wreck havoc on my life, and when I say wreck havoc I mean they really fucked my life up. All in all it is my fault for letting my guard down and letting them. 

I act according to how you act, I pick up on vibes and body languages really quickly and I act accordingly. But I don’t act directly, its subtle and if you are empathic you will pick up on my moodiness immediately, but if you are not, my moods can be very confusing for another to decipher. I have this issue where I desire emotional contact with society and people in general but I don’t at the same time, I want security and constant reassurance but in order to do that I have to put myself out there as well and that’s not an easy thing for me to do. I am not an outwardly loving person, I show people I care by following through on my word, listening to them when they talk (just to be clear it is insanely hard for me to listen 100% when someone is talking to me), I also show it through food, if I cook for you, trust me, I care. I have no idea how to connect with people face to face, there’s always an awkwardness and pauses in conversations with new people make me want to die so I avoid meeting new people and much as i can but I hate that I am like that because I want to be able to just connect with people so bad. I have an argument going on in my head, “do they like me”? “how do they feel about me”? I may look and act like I don’t care what people think about me but deep down inside I do. I am very sensitive inside and most people would never know that because I don’t want them to see how vulnerable I really am. 

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Natal Moon opposite Chiron

Moon in Sagittarius in the 4th House opposite Chiron in Gemini in the 10th House.

This aspect is similar to the Moon opposite North Node aspect, as there are many difficulties relating to your feminine side or females in the individuals life. My mother has secrets which would make sense considering she has an 8th House Sun. If I could think of one word to describe the emotion that comes to my mind when I think of my childhood with my mother it would be “unprotected”. I was exposed to loss, hurt, pain and shame early in life. I know my mom hurt me but I have no memory of it, it’s just a feeling of knowing. These feelings have begun to surface more and more in my adult life, and are starting to come to a head. Feelings that I have stuffed down, deep into my subconscious. My collarbone was broken when I was 3, nobody knows how. My mom says that she went to give me a bath and I refused to raise my arms so she could remove my shirt and when she tried to lift my arms up I screamed. This never sat right with me. 

Chiron is the “Wounded Healer”, this wound from my mother is never going to go away, but I can manage this with lots of natural therapy, and integrating my feminine nature. This is so important to me because I love my kids and I don’t ever want them to feel like I never protected them. I know this wound is here, I recognize it, I acknowledge it and I am nursing it. That starts with self love. Self love is the healing salve to the cracks of our wounds. These cracks were created by the lack of love in the individuals environment. I’ve gone through many periods in my life where I seemed void of all feelings. It wasn't until I read an emotional book, listened to a song that gave me goosebumps and brought tears to my eyes, or watched a movie that made my chest tight with tears gently streaming down my cheeks did I realize that I do feel, I’m not a void of nothingness, a socio or psychopath.  My mothers focus was always on herself, I can’t think of any times where we were close really. It’s like she was trying to pretend to be a mother but she wasn’t a good actress. I felt unprotected and abandoned. I didn’t know how to nurture my wounds after hurt, which was a lot. My “cure” was having lots of unfulfilling relationships, that left me even more scarred and broken. I am someone my family used to know as I do not go out of my way to call and talk to anybody. I don’t see my family and there isn’t really a desire to either, I am sure the feeling is mutual. 

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Natal Moon opposite North Node

Moon in Sagittarius in the 4th House opposite North Node in Taurus in the 10th House.

The Nodes of the Moon are related to the subconscious. The South Node is the subconscious related to the past, it’s what we naturally cling to that may not be serving us. The North Node is the conscious that is relevant to the here and now, or the future, it represents how we want to change and better ourselves, what we strive to be. Because the Moon rules our emotions, the Nodes give us strong emotions that are tied in with your imagination and your senses. The Moon Opposite North Node gives the individual keen psychic abilities, like prophecy, or just plain paranoia and suspicion...I have all of the above. I am suspicious and paranoid with most people I come into contact with and for good reason. 

Individuals with this aspects generally have difficult relationships with women, especially with the mother, but there is also a strong psychic link to the mother as well. Growing up I didn’t really have many girlfriends, and in middle and high school I had a few but they could never be trusted. I’ve been in a few incidences where girls/women have treated me poorly for no reason at all. One in particular was a boss that made my life hell, I was like her puppet, she would build me up, to take me down, like a yo-yo. Some days I would go home and cry. I worked my ass of at that job, and I could do just about everybody’s job in the building as I was cross trained. She refused to promote me to supervisor, it was so bad that I actually trained my own supervisor, I was the trainer in the company, so I trained all the new people. I remember sitting in my other supervisors office, venting, and she said “Kirsten, most people don’t think life is hard for pretty girls, but it is, it’s not easy for you, your boss does these things because you are pretty and smart, and kind”. I had a few older co workers tell me the same, and it hurt me, because I really tried hard to be great at my job and I knew that I was. I didn’t do it as a popularity thing, I did it because I had 4 kids, and I was a single mother without child support. I did it because I wanted to show my kids that it is possible with hard work and dedication to take yourself out of a hole. 

My mother has her Sun in Sagittarius and her Rising in Taurus with a Capricorn stellium (My Moon in Sag and my North Node is in Taurus...weird huh). Sometimes I feel like I am reliving my mothers life, it’s very strange. My mother and I are close, but what my mother doesn’t know is that I secretly resent the shit out of her and that I don’t think she was a very good mother. She may have an idea, I barely call her, the older I get the more I realize how much she hurt me as a child, and the more I have to work through those emotions. My mother was withdrawn, and only loving when she had a few glasses of wine in her. I don’t express my sensitive side well, it’s locked up tight and because of this people generally see me as stand offish and quiet, which then leads to them not liking me. But if you took the time to get to know me you would see the real me, you just have to break through the socially awkward exterior. 

People with this aspect have a hard time getting support from others. Anytime I needed help I had to figure it out for myself, support from people was not something I ever had access to, because I’m not one to expose my troubles and ask for help. I’d rather die. But I also never had much of a support system to go to either. Individuals will usually have paranoia's, fears and anxieties, most are not comfortable in crowds. The only time I can handle crowds is if it involves music, I am fine at concerts but that is it. If I have to go to Walmart and its food stamp day, forget it, I feel like I can’t breathe and it puts me in a really negative mood. It’s only because I am a sponge for others vibrations, I am learning on strengthening my emotions so I can block the negative, but when you have no boundaries it can be very difficult. 

When I was younger I was very much in tune with my South Node in Scorpio, I was into the dark side of the occult. I mastered manipulation, I set fire to bridges and watched them burn as I cackled away in my head. Hurt me and I will make you wish you never met me, I will destroy you, you will hate me. This influence of my Scorpio South Node destroyed any ounce of sensitivity the Moon gave me. So tired of being hurt, so tired of being left, so tired of not being good enough, everyone will burn. It’s not like I didn’t warn anybody either. If you don’t love me the way I need you to love me be prepared, this is not a threat. This aspect to my personality when I was younger was necessary though, I needed to master the dark side to Scorpio, because that is what helped me get out of some really scary and tough situations. I am no longer this person and if I have to manipulate someone it is because that person is bad and it HAS to be done. I had to learn as well that, I can’t be paranoid about everyone, not everyone is out to get me. Isolation and loneliness comes with the that territory, and it sucks. Creating boundaries and developing a backbone are necessary for people with this aspect. If you have this aspect I hope you discover this sooner than later. 

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Natal Neptune in Capricorn

With your natal Neptune in Capricorn, you want to achieve something in your life, and can be practical with your creative ideas. When it comes to your beliefs, you can go for traditional views, or find inspiration through the arts. You may wish life was more fair and rewarded hard work more than it does, and have to learn to accept life as it is.

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Natal Moon semi-sextile Neptune

Moon in Sagittarius in the 4th House semi-sextile Neptune in Capricorn in the 4th House

For as long as I can remember music and nature has been my peace, my escape, and my solace. Music and nature is where I go to recharge, to center myself and to readjust my focus if I lose it, which is often . My stepdad knew where to to hurt me by making sure I had 0 access to those 2 things. I craved and yearned for it. 

I got a boombox one year for my birthday, or maybe it was Christmas...I can’t remember. It was my most prized gift. The rule was that I could not leave it on through the night because our energy bill would be too high. I would leave it on low because I was scared of the dark and it comforted me to hear background music in my ear as I would go to sleep. My stepdad would come into my room to check if it was still on and I would wake up with my boombox gone, and it would be gone for months until my stepdad felt like I “earned” it back. And once again it’d be a vicious cycle. PS I am still afraid of the dark. Besides music nothing made me happier than being outside. I had to check in every hour and if I was late then it was 2 weeks of grounding. So I was grounded a lot. 

Now that I am an adult I make sure that my environment is inspirational to any creativity I chose to use at the time, with all the elements available in my home. Music, lots of plants, candles and crystals, and I was thinking of adding a little water fountain as a water element as well. This is my escape, where I can come home and recharge, because I am highly attuned to the vibrations around me. This causes me to be vulnerable to negativity. By the time I get home I feel like I’ve ran a marathon, it’s exhausting. I’m starting to do an exercise now where I just think loving thoughts when I am out in the world, every time I feel negative I try to send loving thoughts into the world. The power of the mind is a phenomenal tool. I wonder what would happen if we all tried this? 

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Moon conjunct Saturn Natal

Moon in Sagittarius in the 4th House conjunct Saturn in Scorpio in the 4th House.

I call this aspect the “Iron Crab”. Saturn represents restrictions and limits, when making a hard aspect to the Moon which represents the way we were nurtured as a child it makes the emotions of this individual very tough to get to. We have built a fortress around us with a moat that’s deep and wide filled with monsters with gnashing teeth. Only those who are brave enough to swim it and climb the tall walls will know just how sensitive and soft we really are. We give off the vibe of being reserved,k serious, and cool, like we are the boss, but of what is the question? We like to appear this way because we fear showing our feelings. We are not wear your heart on our sleeves individuals. I’ve been told I am too serious, and not loving...which hurts, because I so badly want to be that person. This of course was learned from my mother who was emotionally absent, I never felt loved or nurtured. unlearning this is hard, being more loving is not easy, it’s uncomfortable and awkward. My childhood felt like prison, it was never warm and fuzzy, childhood felt like laying on a concrete floor in a damp basement. If I could describe my childhood in a sentence it would be “full of rules and disappointments”. Being in the house all the time, not able to really do anything, and hearing my parents talk shit about people molded me into an individual with a shy, reserved personality, I trust no one, but because of them I try to be humble, don’t get me wrong I can be the biggest shit talker you ever met but I really try to see the beauty in everybody. I was groomed to be a stand up lady of society, saying “yes/no ma’am” to my mother and females, saying “yes/no sir” to my stepdad and males. Saying “Grace” and getting our elbows smacked at the dinner table. Getting our necks squeezed and our hair pulled when we got out of line in public. Made to read every book on the book list over summer break, spending most of my time in libraries and my bedroom. Doing endless chores, and watching my sister do none. For most of this I am grateful, I just wish it was easier for me to be social and make friends, it gets lonely. I grew up fast, I am very self sufficient and resourceful. I got my first job at McDonald's and was more responsible than most of my peers. My parents didn’t think so but I went to school with rich kids who were handed everything and did whatever they wanted. 

People with this aspect have the tendency to experience depression often. Nothing can really be going on but we will still find a reason to be depressed. What people don’t realize is that these individuals carry huge burdens. We come off as these strong, super human individuals when really we just want someone to carry us every now and then, we carry everyone else, we need a break a break too. My boyfriend has made that happen for me and it’s hard to take in sometimes, I almost feel guilty for letting him take the reigns. It’s hard for me to accept help as I do not ever expect the help from others. I’d rather die then ask for help. I depend on nobody, for anything, whether that be feelings, men, women, or marriage. 

I’ve always had an issue with my femininity. My step dad would have been perfectly happy with me wearing a baggy burlap sack, and mother is a true nudist. Expressing my femininity was hard, and I haven’t been able to until I hit 34, I am now proud of my luscious hips, and my round bubbly booty and my thick thighs, its the true definition of woman and femininity in its purest form, a mothers body. I am the giver and nurture of life and my body is exquisite. 

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Those with the Sun conjunct Neptune have a hazy boundary line to the ego, and the personality can be extraordinarily sensitive, compassionate, and gentle. The person feels selfless and devoted and is capable of surrendering to life. The individual is also adept at making sacrifices for others, and giving up an independent identity. Sun conjunct Neptune’s vision is altruistic and inspired with a high sensitivity to the emotions of others. Stephen Arroyo wrote about this combination and hailed it as exceptionally common in those whose lives are guided by a larger, more encompassing vision than normal.The intuitive and psychic ability is often well developed, and the individual is open to many different realities. Some astrologers even describe this placement as the mystic in the truest sense. C.E.O Carter believes this is the most common aspect in the charts of astrologers, especially those involved in the art of predictive astrology. The author also says that whatever subject interests the native, there is usually a lifelong devotion.

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Moon square Mars Natal

Moon in Sagittarius in the 4th house square Mars in Aquarius in the 6th House.

I call this the “mommy issues” aspect. You can see this in a lot of peoples charts who have issues with the mother. When I was born my mother didn’t see or hold me till the next day, she had a C-section so I was given to my father. My father and I were very close. My mom would get upset because I always wanted to be with my dad, she would get jealous because I would sleep next to my dad all the time. My mom was 21 and my father was 22 when they had me. My father is an alcoholic, but that doesn’t mean he didn’t love me, I know this now. Being the sensitive Pisces he is, he found escape from his pain through the bottle, the downstream fish. My mom became pregnant with my brother, an accident. She left my father not long after, moving us back to Alaska from Minnesota to live with my grandparents. I never saw my daddy again till I was 25 years old. After my mom left he was a full blown alcoholic, too weak minded to be there for my brother and I, and that’s hard to understand for a child, you think that the absent parent just doesn’t love you, you feel unlovable and abandoned. I became quiet and withdrawn, I tucked feelings away deep inside my subconscious. My mom didn’t waste anytime to find a man. Another military man, my father was Airforce, my stepdad Army. It wasn’t bad for a bit, until my sister was born when I was 8 years old and I started going through puberty. That’s when things started to get bad. My mom got the attention she needed, she had her new daughter, and a man who hated me just because I was me, a man who dominated and controlled me, my moon is in Sagittarius and my Mars in Aquarius freedom and independence is of utmost importance, cage me in and I will be your worst nightmare. I bet they had hate sex because of me, I wouldn’t doubt it. She always made sure to be extra loud...always making me feel uncomfortable, go ahead and validate yourself ma.

This aspect will give an individual a bad temper, emotionally volatile, and quick to get upset. Think of Tinker Bell when she gets upset and her whole body turns red...that’s me. 0 to 100 in a hot second. I’m not confrontational, but I am prepared to throw the fuck down if I need to, and I enjoy it. I’ve had lots of trouble in my relationships due to being too sensitive or too demanding. I get worked up easily. Always on the defensive side, due to living everyday having to defend myself over every little thing. The smallest thing could set my stepdad off, and 9 times out of 10 it was something my brother did that I would get punished for. Something tells me there was early abuse as well, around age 3 but I am not ready to talk about that yet. My feelings are 100% emotion based, emotionally impulsive, I can sense things even if you appear to be fine. This was conditioning. My stepdad conditioned me, it prepared me to be on my toes, because I married a man who was just like my stepdad, my stepdad just hid his darkness better. If my boyfriend is moody or having a bad day and he isn’t talking about it, I know when he is not ok, which triggers my abandonment issues, it scares me to my very core. The energy is so raw and it could be that he is just moody but I think in extremes. 

It’s hard for me to be comfortable and secure when things are perfect, calm and happy, when I feel safe. Like it’s too good to be true, I am waiting and on my toes, waiting for conflict, waiting for him to leave me. Trying not to get my hopes up. I hate living like this, it tears me apart. I never knew that I was difficult to love till after the 4th relationship and I was told that I wasn’t an easy person to love, that I wasn’t a loving person, that I didn’t initiate enough. When all your past lovers are saying the same thing its very sobering and you think you’re destined to be alone forever. I wasn’t loved and nurtured by the man who made me or by the man who raised me, and my mom’s love was barely at my fingertips. I’ve either wanted someone I couldn’t have, or completely sever connections and hurt those I have gotten close to. Sex has always been a problem for me, because I am empathic, I am emotionally tuned in and present, sex is very empathic for me, which has often gotten me into some messy situations, because I am a magnet for energy sucking vampires, they latch on to me and try to control me, try to claim me as theirs and they become possessive, even if they aren’t faithful to me, they think they still own me. 

Sex is actually a great outlet for all this volatile energy and I am so grateful to be able to have and share that with my partner who is such a positive and patient force in my life...he’s a Aries on the cusp of Pisces ruled by Mars, he knows how to calm my fire. I have seen and known evil, I have watched my aura float over my body as death stood at my door. I have different perspectives than most when it comes to life and I am very much present and tuned into my life force. physical exercise, whether it be the gym, hiking, swimming or making love with my man is very  important for my emotional well being. I have this innate ability to take care of others and myself. I very passionate about taking care of people I love or need help. I like to encourage people to be brave and have courage as I know life is too short, it really is, and I will protect and defend those that I love with ferocity you have never seen, because I know what it’s like to not feel protected, to feel unsafe, to feel vulnerable to feel like nobody cares. I want to be the person I needed for others. 

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Sun conjunct or quincunx Neptune people are prone more than most to dissolving! They have great difficulty holding onto their ego. The boundaries between themselves and others are blurry and they absorb the collective unconsciousness like a sponge. These subjects can be prone to escapism and all forms of addictions. This is because their physical sensitivity to the real world around them is so great. They long to merge with the great spirit and feel that euphoria of oneness once again.

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