#boring. its very nice..... i rlly hope i get hired again next year

[dykedragons]

bro talking w other queer + autistic ppl is rlly a healing thang... like at work im usually pretty quiet and masking all the time but then i met an acquaintance who also works there (different department, i never see them) and it was like oh yeah! haha! im alive again! i remember how to speak! amazing!

#ramblies #LIKE i came ALIVE my coworkers were like holy shit u actually can socializejkgdfnjfdkjdfngds #like from college -> my place of employment was tonal whiplash just bc of the demographic of students vs employees #and the demographic rlly isnt even THAT different form me regularly but its just My Department where im an odd one out #which is ok! like all things my coworkers r totally cool people and i do get along with them! i just dont know how to hold a conversation! #gosh i do love my job though like most days its just. at worst its kinda #boring. its very nice..... i rlly hope i get hired again next year #idk my inferiority complex gets the better of me a lot and im like ''nah everyone hates me'' even though some ppl show up and like #barely fuckin do anything. like at least i TRY. i havent. broken anything. i havent started any drama. idk #i just feel like i dont do ''enough'' but of course i feel that way bc my entire team is way more qualified and enthusiastic abt the work #than i am bc this is a Completely Different Thang than what i normally do. but my coworkers know this as well #but yea im hopign to come back! im rlly grateful for this job bc i thought i wouldnt get hired and even if i did that i wouldnt #be capable of doing the work. but. HERE I AM! and im doing pretty ok! im enjoying it!