#but Ambrosius is the only one who's genuinely kind to him because he doesn't actually see him as a villain

[ilivelikeimtrying]

Nimona AU where Ballister is a villain but like, he's not even really that evil, like, at all. He's just, really bad at being a Villain.

And him and his "Nemesis" have the worst relationship, meaning that they have a great relationship because they don't even actually hate each other like Nemesis' are supposed to.

V!Ballister, doing an 'evil' monologue: Well well well, sir Goldenloin, it has been quite some time since we've last- What's wrong?

Ambrosius, whose face was scrunched a bit: Huh? Oh, it's nothing, these ropes on my wrists are just- they're burning and itching is all- you can keep-

V!Ballister, panicking and running over: Really?! Oh Ambrosius you've been here for hours! Why didn't you say anything sooner?! Are they too tight? Is it this new brand? I told Nimona not to get these ones but no-

*cue to Ambrosius staring fondly at Ballister as he continues to ramble about never buying this specific set of ropes again*

Half the time Ambrosius doesn't even know why he's fighting the guy, like, The Director is all "He's the personification of an Evil Villain" at Ballister and Ambrosius is staring at the same guy seeing him help a little girl get her kitten out of a tree and give a good bit of the money he stole to people in need and points at him like "Really????? "

#nimona #nimona 2023 #nimona movie #Ambrosius questions the Director so much when it comes to Ballister #Nimona he's a little more inclined to believe because she's basically chaos- but even then he hasn't seen her ACTUALLY do something BAD #but Ballister himself is like- trying to be a villain with Nimona- #(and has the means for it I mean- c'mon he's a genius who can fight and has a kickass sidekick) #- But he's just- so bad at actually being bad. #he's very much capable of commiting crimes and doing villainous acts but other then that the guy is so wet cat and actually super nice #the people still 'fear' him as a villain because of the Institute and their propaganda and the other Hero's hate him #(because he's beaten them all before in battle- and wins every time) #but Ambrosius is the only one who's genuinely kind to him because he doesn't actually see him as a villain #kinda wanted to Uno Reverse Card things- so they both like each other but Am is so oblivious to Bal's advances- #even when he's being painfully obvious #like- it's not a 'we can't date cuz we're on opposite sides' thing- it's a: #'I really like him but he probs doesn't feel the same cuz we're on opposite sides' thing #okay so like- looking at it better now- yeah this is defs comic × movie now so #¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯ #nimona comic #cuz like- they do give off those vibes #but in my head this Amb is still his movie personality and nice #with a mix of 'wake up don't believe everything this bitch is saying' juice #and as dumb/af comic Amb #like at some point Bal requires his help to get rid of admirers and is like 'I could use something cute on my arm to turn them away'- #and Am is like '... you could always use a nice handbag. You can borrow one of mine if you don't have one- or! I saw this really nice one'- #and Bal is just staring at him like 'Gloreth he's so dumb i can't not have him' #and he mentions that he meant a cute PERSON on his arm but Am is still like 'Oooh... uhm- I have this one friend- they might help if i ask' #and Bal just goes 'YOU! I MEANT YOU YOU ADORABLY DUMB TWINK OF A HIMBO! I COULD USE YOU NEXT TO ME TO FEND THEM OFF!'

[thespacedragons]

Ok I've been trying not to rant about nimona because I want to rant about really specific things I would call spoilers so final warning turn back now if you haven't seen it.

When the squire gave Balister his sword and he hefted it, he Knew it was weird because swords balance can be thrown off very easily, and for someone who is used to using that sword it would be easy to tell. And I knew there was the tension around him becoming a knight because of the order, plus the squire trying to tell him something. My mind immediately went oh no something bad is going to happen during the ceremony with the sword. So I'm really tense the entire time the queen is holding the sword, and then she hands it back and I kind of breathe a sigh of relief and Then and only Then at the Moment I let my guard down is when it happened. And I saw him too shocked to do anything and I'm like No point it away! Oh no.

It was spoiled to me before I watched the movie so I knew his arm got cut off, and I guess I understand how his arm got cut off especially with his later explanation of "that's how we were trained". So I understand how it happened, training and muscle memory kicked in before he could even think, or else he might have just gone for the sword or for the wrist even.

Then the guilt that Ambrosius felt about that was addressed in such a good way (the car ride with the lady whos title i forgot was amazing, i think a very good way to show that he is having complicated emotions while also showing him not being on the level of relationship with her where he could share those complicated(and mildly treacherous) thoughts). And even through that guilt: when he saw Ballister again, he treated his prosthetic as part of him, because now it is.

Also on the topic of guilt, you can tell that Ballister feels guilty for the death of the queen, even though he knows, and argues, that he is not at fault. Maybe I can just see it because I get this unique brand of guilt for things that aren't actually my fault, but I vibed with Ballister so much on that, and seeing him able to overcome that guilt, even if it was in a subtext that nobody could read, made me so so happy for him.

Another thing I vibed with Ballister on was his growth in acceptance of Nimona. I was raised in a covertly homophobic, overtly "supportive" way, if you know what I mean. The questions that he was asking at first felt innocent to him even though they were actually attacking how Nimona is, thus her response of "I'm Nimona". And telling him he was asking small minded questions, because he was trying to fit his understanding of it where he could already understand at first. Eventually he came to accept that he didn't need to understand Nimona completely to still think of her as an amazing person, because Nimona understood herself. And that's when he asked questions of genuine curiosity instead of questions that were for a purpose, to categorize her in a way he would understand. And when the question was out of genuine curiosity, Nimona answered.

And onto Nimona herself, I am not as unapologetically myself as her, nor am I Nearly as chaotic, but the way she presented her gender is something I haven't felt true connection to in another character. Perhaps it's because I relatively recently discovered my gender identity or because I haven't been watching the right shows, but how she sees her gender is how I see mine. Yes I am presented like a girl but I'm not a girl if I don't want to be in the moment. And that is incredibly oversimplified way to put it, but I still can't really find the words to explain my gender identity even seeing one so similar on the screen.

And another thought that I saw someone else say that I completely agree with is that it is so amazing that we never see how Nimona "started" that she doesn't have a "true form". Because it's irrelevant, and honestly I've seen so much where people are making what you started put as just if not more important than who you are now. Yes the past shapes the future but it's our present choices that make the past, the past is done and we can't change it, so just learn from it and use what you've learned to live Now, to Be now. Because what you are Now, is what is important because even as it shifts, it's always going to be now.

Don't know if that last bit was very coherent but if you've read this far thanks for reading my silly little passion rant and I love you. <3

#sorry #rant #very long rant #nimona #nimona spoilers #my thoughts on this are long and complicated and i could probably keep going #but also im out of brain and will power ive been typing for probably more than half an hour #i think i got most of my talking points out if not ill just add on later #this is fine