#but i am. self conches about like? bragging about that. even when i’m in a situation where tooting my own horn is encouraged

[ghostzvne]

the problem with putting a lot of effort into honing a creative skill that is only accessible to approx 3 people at any given time is you feel really weird saying you’re good at it because you have no way to “prove” it unless the person you’re talking to is one of those specific people so then it’s just like you’re talking out of your ass and being self-important about it

this post is about being a game master

#i’m goin post! #i don’t think i’m ever gonna reach a point where i don’t feel like i’m lying when i tell people i’m a good GM #especially if they’ve 1) never been in a game with me 2) played in a game i GMed when i was genuinely not good or skilled at it haha #and it’s like. gah. i am so so so proud of the creativity i’ve poured into gming #and i’m so proud of myself AND MY FRIENDS for all the amazing stories i’ve had the opportunity to help make in that way #but i am. self conches about like? bragging about that. even when i’m in a situation where tooting my own horn is encouraged #gah idk a part of me is like “wow danny this whole post is just you fishing” but it’s smth that’s been on my mind lately #same with like. saying i’m a good roleplayer #it feels very weird to go “just trust me” about my own skills when i have no way to back it up unless you’re currently roleplaying with me #this post may self destruct if i start feeling weird enough about it