#but i've lost a bit of my carefreeness due to worrying too much abt how others may perceive me ? being afraid in a way

[noxtivagus]

i want my lover to be a writer

#🌙.rambles #don't mind me just another one of my hopeless romantic antics #i swear i'm not usually so open about that especially for the past year #actually nvm i've always been like this . i still write a lot the same way i used to when i was younger #but i've lost a bit of my carefreeness due to worrying too much abt how others may perceive me ? being afraid in a way #my creativity thrives when i just let myself be comfortable w my own self #the idea of love. n actually loving is so beautiful #it's far from perfect but i know what are my values n goals regarding love #n while i'd really love to have experiences while i'm young. yk indulge a little in my youth #cries in my studies are my priority . as it should be though. my work is very important to me #i'm not actively seeking for love but god if i find it somewhere n by chance it happens to be reciprocated. that would be lovely #that said i would like a lover that is a writer #n so we'd also fall in love deeply with each other's words. the other worlds in our heads #someone who'd love the little things. every shift in our voices. the way our eyes speak. #the moments in between the silences. each unfiltered thought and word. everything unsaid but known #someone who also loves life and themselves #wah i have to go now but i'm thinking of the things i've written n read #i want to experience them in my own way. someday #sob i wna get better at the piano n write songs #i wna write letters i wna hug you when you're crying i wna kiss you goodnight #10 years in the future maybe 🫠