#but like just fantasizing alone is difficult rn tbh

[prettyboybun]

Sometimes it's like. no I am not horny. Yes I know when I get home, I will inevitably be touching my tdick til I cum regardless. We exist

#think it's mostly just that I need cuddled but I don't see my bf til tomorrow #I'm also just in a vv soft mood anyways- 💫 has been fronting a lot today #anyways umm. hold me in your arms and overstim me while I bury my face in your chest? 🥺 #edit- also realizing that I can't think Too in depth/serious abt sex rn due to ptsd stuff being wack rn #like. I can absolutely still do sex stuff esp with my partner because I don't feel any pressure to be a certain way #but like just fantasizing alone is difficult rn tbh

[ffuturefoundation]

quietlymyself replied to your post: Like who the fuck fantasizes about being murdered...

you’re not bad, and you’re not alone. like the above person said–what happened to you was horrific, and that was how you voted.

quietlymyself replied to your post “I talked about me being a bad person and how i think so because i used...”

i wanted my dad to die. i wanted him to get caught doing something so terrible that he would rot in jail forever, even if i had to die to make that happen. I'm here with you. you're not alone.

yeah i feel that so hard, like if either of them killed me then at least i would get to stop existing and maybe they would get some kind of punishment or someone would acknowledge that i was being hurt!! and it is such a terrible thing to hope for, but i was just in this point in my life where it felt like there was nothing else. and idk my thoughts about it were super fucked up and an as an adult they still make me uncomfortable.

abuse like that when you are so young is just so difficult to cope with i think :( also anyone calling my abuse horrific makes me want to cry rn bc it is like, ahh what happened to me really is bad according to other people? and i just really need that validation at the moment tbh. what they did to me is so normalised in my mind that it feels like it should have been normal

#quietlymyself #your comments really do mean so much to me <33 #m