#but like. i don’t know. i probably lack the foresight id need to start fronting regularly again

[dirtbugz]

haha im so lonely

#my dads are nice and all but talking to my headmates doesn’t count as socializing and i cannot become That Guy who only talks to the voices #LMFAO #it would be easier for me to make friends if i wasnt an ageslider so im like #constantly overthinking about who i should and shouldnt talk to #esp after what happened to mikey #like i know im smarter than someone who regresses to be literally a dog #but like. i don’t know. i probably lack the foresight id need to start fronting regularly again #which makes me kind of sad. i really miss my friends but we don’t talk to any of them anymore and have no way to go about that… #plus they’ve all changed a LOT and i’m still… the same. i guess #idk. im feeling kind of awful about myself #i didn’t want it ti be like this… i never thought id say this but i wish i had been allowed to grow up. i wanna change and be better #sorry karkat if you see this post (im addressing u directly bcz ur my only follower) #i am Okay im just in a down spell bc im thinking abt my old life and what it was like for us b4 we moved in w our ‘mom’ and she fucked me up