#but like. i hate xtianity 😭 the type i was raised in specifically anyway

[arowrath]

Whhenever i get really scared like reallyyyyy scared or when i get really lonely i consider reconverting to christianity. and like gaslighting myself into believing in god again. just to have A Guy whos super powerful and also loves me and is looking oit for me

#text #im not actually doing tbat. because cjriatianity deginitely did really bad things to my feveloping brain #but i do consider it everry couple months or so. bbecause theres sometning wrong witj me #but like. i hate xtianity 😭 the type i was raised in specifically anyway #there are cool xtians and stuff and tberes aspects of the religion that istill find beautiful/comfoeting/whayever #but i also disagree with some fundamental aspects so not really a good match for me i think HAHA #abd like theres other religions but i also dont beljeve in god really so. yknow. #well i think mostly im looking for comfort and community more than religion #so i should probably just get really into weed or something.