#but nope!!! i wont go into details but it was SO HORRIBLY DISORDERED

[cest-la-venus]

i still don't have the unrebloggable post thing lol

#disordered eating #weight loss mention #medical #with the warnings out of the way here's the real post #ive been having body image issues and Also health issues that may be tied to my weight #so in a moment of weakness a few weeks ago i decided to at least look at the n0/0m app to see what all the fuss was about #bc the marketing really did make it sound like it might be onto something #and i know enough about nutrition to know that everyone's healthiest way of eating can vary wildly #so like idk i gave it the benefit of the doubt. maybe its helping people do a modified version of intuitive eating or something #but nope!!! i wont go into details but it was SO HORRIBLY DISORDERED #i dont doubt that maybe there are some people with cores of steel who could engage w its framework in a healthy way #mostly bc the world is a vast tapestry and i cannot possibly understand everyone elses experiences #but like. MY FUCKING GOD WEIGHT LOSS CULTURE IS SO AWFUL #nothing about what i saw on that app would have supported my health lemme tell ya #(also disclaimer me claiming that maybe I would benefit to lose weight for health reasons is not me saying all fat people are unhealthy #or need to lose weight. nobody owes anyone health or thinness or whatever. i dont want to argue about what led me to this conclusion #and i am being extremely careful to prioritize my actual literal health over my weight #i dont have a goal weight i dont count calories i have a goal of manage xyz conditions using gentle lifestyle changes) #(this feels like a lot of disclaimers to say abt me talking about a very average healthcare choice but i feel the need to say it anyway #bc 1 fat activism is so fucking important and i am aware that my personal health choices are not apolitical #and 2 i am a weenie and i dont want my vent about an app that feels like garbage to me to upset anyone) #anyway. diet culture exists to force as many people as possible into very destructive eating patterns for the sake of The Profit #dont fall for it like i briefly did. worry about your health and let your body worry about how to handle your fat cells