#but still it is ANNOYING that everytime a zoom class starts. all my tics are like the ''its showtime'' meme

[fluttershys-lament]

dude my nervous tics are just getting worse aaaaa (in spanish they're called tics nerviosos so i just translated it literally lmao) (and actually they got worse the past year and then just. Stayed like that,,,,, aaaaaaaa)

#i had them since i was 9. and that's almost six years ago now nooooooo #they just started as a single little thing. annoying? not at all. just s veeery little #then i got over it. and after a while new ones started to come until now that i have like #more. i dont know how many but they aren't like three or even four anymore #i mean. they don't always like. ''activate''. just when im in zoom or another place in which i dont feel comfortable #either because im not familiar with it. or there are lots of ppl. or idk #but still it is ANNOYING that everytime a zoom class starts. all my tics are like the ''its showtime'' meme #i do my best to not like. blink v hard. do weird annoying sounds with my mouth #(did you know that you can somewhat fake a fart or sumn with your mouth closed and no hands. #it doesnt rlly sound like that but it's the closest i can think of lmao) #(ok back to where i was) #or even touch an object harder or sumn because if i did it v slightly it starts to annoy me #or if there's a faint sound. it also starts to kinda annoy me and then i want to hear music or something louder #or also pet one one of my plushies to make me feel less uncomfortable. i dont think it rlly works tho but #i can feel my hands wanting to pet sumn and im just ''>:(((( calm down'' #all of it stops after a while tho. but what i feel when it happens is annoyingggg i cant stand it #how do i even stop having those tics??? my mum tells me to try and think of something else and do my best to not do em #which i try but it doesnt work at allll #aaaaaa #ok i dont think i should've written a lot but ok lmao