#but the whole wretched sould cold heart eternal darkness thing is pushing it atp

[girl-bateman]

my brain is funny sometimes bc it's very incessant with its whole "ur an evil bad person actually" thing, all the while it daydreams abt hosting creative writing programmes for at risk youth as like the ultimate career goal. like... yeah ok. im the devil. sure. let's go with that.

#im not saying im a saint or anythjng #but the whole wretched sould cold heart eternal darkness thing is pushing it atp #like yeah ok ive said some mean stuff before. ive been a little violent in my early teens. but i rly dont see the point of #characterising myself like this when the evidence doesent match up #(me while consoling a client and genuinely trying to help them any way i can): god im the fucking worst. im a demon spawn. i have no soul #(me while daydreaming abt being a stable role model and helping kids with their dreams): literally no one is as evil as me #like ?????😭😭😭 #its time to face the reality that im actually just an averagly complex person who is neither good nor bad #god i forgot... the worst part... i even volunteer #how will i ever keep my cold exterior intact when i do shit like this 😩 #personal